Ellen Vorsatz - Same Thing Lyrics

Four walls, me and four walls
Voices coming through from down the hall
Do I interject
Do I eject
Either way, I know they just get upset
But I know at least I won't deflect
My parents got a problem, a major defect
We don't discuss and it disgusts me
Even though the communication is key
The things that I tend to feel are absolutely unreal
Sometimes I forget myself
Don't you see, I've been living the same thing every day
Nobody knows where I'm going next
I gotta keep my head down, but not break my neck
Let's go
Phone calls, so many phone calls
Oh my god, I can't take it all
Do I accept
Do I reject
Either way, I know they just get upset
But I know what I do has a great effect
What I gotta do is keep myself in check, bet, yeah, learning to put myself first
I'm the only one of me in this universe
The things I get locked into
Pile high up through the roof
To get me stuck on the shelf
Yeah, you know that she's goin' through the same thing
Yeah, you know that she's goin' through the same thing
Yeah, you know that she's goin' through the same thing
Yeah, you know that she's goin' through the same thing
Here I am again back from the grave, my friend
I wish I could pretend I never met you back when
I was caught up in a bend, spendin' all day in bed
Back when I couldn't admit I needed help with it
Now, I'm feeling strong again out of the wilderness
Hundred-acre woods was some kind of cosmic-ness
I battled right up against all the demons I invented in my head
I'm undeserving to the worthy you spit and I can't express
The automobiles, planes, and trains I had to take
Back when I was down
Feeling so fake, it was a mistake to ever drag you down into my cave
I wonder if you would regret ever meeting me, to this day
I lie awake
Where's the smile on my face
It's misplaced, but I think I could taste it and maybe recreate it
All these empty nights have gone and left me wasted
And now I'm feeling some sort of new creation
Somebody in the mirror who's begging to see it clearer
I'm done with living in fear, I want to wipe away the tears
Take out the electric shears and the frontal down to my ears
New look, I'm shook, new me, new year, I'm here