Ellie Madeland - Making It Known Lyrics

I know I'm more than just one thing to you, I know
I know I'm not like the coolest though, no I know
'Cause I know I can choose to see beauty and love
But I tear you down,
'Cause i don't like to feel good, no
It's like the pain has become a home
I say I push it away
But I call it over
The only thing that's left now
Is making it known
The only thing that's left now
Is making it known
I've noticed I've tried to hide
From what's mine
Acted out
Our love might not survive
Said things out loud
That I'm not proud of, baby
But if I cry, would you stay close to
Closer to me?
And it's not very graceful, no?
(No, no)
Oh...
I just wanna be graceful though
(Oh, well, no no)
I lose my grip and I am tripping down
All I want is to feel
Freakin' damn fine, fine, fine
The only thing that's left now
Is making it known
The only thing that's left now
Is making it known
I've noticed I've tried to hide
From what's mine
Acted out
Our love might not survive
Said things out loud
That I'm not proud of, baby
But if I cry, would you stay close to
Closer to me?
And I am drowning in my feelings again
And I'm not sure how to swim here yet