Heavy heart and everything turns grey
I wrote a note I'm not so proud of
My bottle's half gone that's the pessimist in me
A lot of hopes that I just ran out of
Clear view of the dirty rain water
Dripping off of the shutters on the fifteenth floor
Lex is a pro got me in a daze
I can see the sounds of the city
I don't sleep no more
I kinda think of death way to often
Too many doubts til my mouth's like cotton
I thought I hit rock bottom
Built a glass house then I hit rock bottom
Where was I
When I lost my sense of self
I'm paralyzed
There's so much I can't help
I fantasize
I could walk with you again
I'll cut ties with the devil 'cause I don't wanna f*ck around
And bury all my friends
Where was I
A lot of loss and I wonder where time goes
There's still a lot of shit I'm so damn proud of
A year moves slow how much time I spent alone
In a funk that I can't get out of
I kinda think of death way to often
Too many doubts til my mouth's like cotton
I thought I hit rock bottom
Built a glass house then I hit rock bottom
Where was I
When I lost my sense of self
I'm paralyzed
There's so much I can't help
I fantasize
I could walk with you again
I'll cut ties with the devil 'cause I don't wanna f*ck around
And bury all my friends
Where was I
Oh shit here we f*cking go again
Pussy money drugs been the only thing filling me
Drinking every night trying to fill the void of feeling it
You got me feeling nice I just might hand you my letterman
I smile even through the hurt I smile
It's so hard to look up when you're down
This over my head I might drown
Where was I
When I lost my sense of self
I'm paralyzed
There's so much I can't help
I fantasize
I could walk with you again
I'll cut ties with the devil 'cause I don't wanna f*ck around
And bury all my friends
Where was I