Emily Cavanaugh - not all the time, just for the rest of it Lyrics

I would follow him to hell
But I wish he'd stop going that far down
Chasing him will be the death of me
So I'll catch my breath on someone better for me
Laying on the wooden boards watching the storm roll in
Can't help but think of all it has in common with him
I'll rot
Before I leave his side
I, I'm here
Not all the time
Just for the rest of it
Tell him I deserve better then I laugh at myself"Silly girl, don't you like it when it hurts?"
In this moment his hands feel better than the lessons I should've learned
So I'll let him hold me by the throat when I try to look away
There's no making it out of this, is there?
He's a burning house I wanna live in
I'll rot
Before I leave his side
I, I'm here
Not all the time
Just for the rest of it
I told him the smokes were bad for him
He said"not as bad as I am for you
And none of us are quitting anytime soon"
Kisses bleeding knuckles before bed
Eyes dilated wide enough for me to fall in
And fall in, I did
And I've been made playlist, I've been cooked breakfast
But I'd trade it all for his drunken secrets
What does that make me?
I've been praying he'll take my shaking hands
They're tired from trying to bury him
Something tells me my hands might be shaking
Not all the time, not all the time
Just for the rest of it
Not all the time
(I will rot, I will rot, I will rot)
Just for the rest of it
Not all the time
(I will rot, I will rot, I will rot)
Just for the rest of it