Emily Edson - Mental Health Lyrics

The sun peeps through my windows again
Where's my medicine
I can't forget it again

I hate waking up to see if today is the day
If the stable will stay
And I kick depression away

Am I really happy or is it just the mania
What is reality when I live in Utopia

Cuz I lose my brain
And I go insane
And I can't get out of this loop
I know I need therapy
Someone there for me
I feel crazy, I do

And I'm terrified
You'll see me as I see myself
I wanna escape my mind
But really I just need help

It's so embarrassing
I am scrambling for something that will finally help
So I don't have to worry about my mental health

I truly love who I am when the mania hits
So driven, never quits
Living inside of a bliss

But three weeks go by and suddenly I wanna die
Always ask "who am I?'
And all I can do is just cry

Am I really happy or is it just the mania
What is reality when I live in Utopia

Cuz I lose my brain
And I go insane
And I can't get out of this loop
I know I need therapy
Someone there for me
I feel crazy, I do

And I'm terrified
You'll see me as I see myself
I wanna escape my mind
But really I just need help

It's so embarrassing
I am scrambling for something that will finally help
So I don't have to worry about my mental health

I can't control this endless cycle, it's putting me through hell
I thought these meds they gave me were supposed to help
I don't know who I am I'm so scared of myself
I don't want to worry
I hate I have to worry
When won't I have to worry about my mental health