Empire of Gold - Help Me Lyrics

I've been a lying fool
I've been around the block or two
I've breathed the freshest air
I've lived inside a cloud of smog
I've been a sinner
I've been a martyr of the things I love
Am I to be a hero
Or doomed to be my mother's son

Life's got a funny way
Of lifting up
Then crashing down
Things go smoothly for a while
Before all hell breaks loose
I feel like I don't remember
What has died inside
Or what has grown

Help me to find
Help me to find

I've been a happy fool
I've been a sad, torn up recluse
I've been given all the best
Then taken for a f*cking thief
And time won't ever give me
Back the things I'm longing for
So I'll just wait right here
And count the lies till judgement day

And there won't ever be
A better way to shout my shame
I'm gonna strum these chords
Till I grow old
And prove my name
I'm writing my worth
No need to mark my grave
I never said I was saved

Help me to find
Help me to find
Myself