The Light Video (MV)

Do you know what it's like
Living with an obsession
Inescapable stressin
Second guessing and questioning, every decision
My ego was driven to teach me a lesson
Has your mind every played the worst enemy, all dressed up as a best friend
Has your fear ever fed off the fact that you desperate
Motherf*cker you best bet

My mind was trying to kill me
Wanted me to die
There was a part of me that lied
To me everyday
And I started to confide in it
Said I oughta be deprived,
Said the heart of me and pride
Never stood a chance
Against Dichotomy of mind
But I gotta be the guy
And I gotta beat the odds
Even if I feel like I ain't got a reason why

It's okay, to feel
Like you don't, like, it here
We can't ignore it
Just cause we don't like to hear it
Say "it's okay you're not okay"
But tell you wipe your tears
And just pretend your f*cking life is perfect like your peers"
Now I know
I gotta fight my fears
I couldn't lie to myself, no
I couldn't hide my feelings
There's a way out
I had to find my spirit
I know it's always the darkest before the light appears
The light appears

Cuz if I let depression defeat me,
That goes against all that I stand for
I done lost a few battles before
But on God, I am winning this damn war
And I try and explain what I'm going through
Wishing you could understand more
I claim that I'm ready for anything
Honestly, it's so much more than I planned for

I don't like myself
I would scream in the mirror
And if I disappear
Would anyone ever even shed a tear
I've become numb, I no longer feel the fear

It's not that I wanted to die
I guess I was feeling like
I was no longer scared
It's not that I hoped to die
But there was part of me
Deep down inside, that no longer cared

It's okay, to feel
like you don't, like, it here
We can't ignore it
just cause we don't like to hear it
Say "it's okay you're not okay"
But tell you wipe your tears
And just pretend your f*cking life is perfect like your peers"
Now I know
I gotta fight my fears
I couldn't lie to myself, no
I couldn't hide my feelings
There's a way out
I had to find my spirit
I know it's always the darkest before the light appears
The light appears

I am not my, mistakes
I am not my, mistakes
I wish I was able, to remind myself
All the times I'd break
I'm begging for someone who loves me
to help me, but no one's advice, I would, take
"Life is great", means shit
When I can't even, find my, faith

Do you know what its like
So convinced that you're worthless
Beat yourself up till your purplish
Like, "Welp, I deserve this"
I must be a piece of shit if I ain't perfect
But if even one person
Who is dying inside while they smile on the surface
Finds some hope in these verses
When they heard this
Then it must be my purpose

So maybe it's worth it
Maybe this is my story to tell
Must be a reason I went through this prison
This cell
And just worry and dwell
Maybe the only way to find my peace
Was in going to war with myself
And maybe my, only way to Heaven
Was through this struggle, enduring this Hell

It's okay, to feel
like you don't, like, it here
We can't ignore it
just cause we don't like to hear it
Say "it's okay you're not okay"
But tell you wipe your tears
And just pretend your f*cking life is perfect like your peers"
Now I know
I gotta fight my fears
I couldn't lie to myself, no
I couldn't hide my feelings
There's a way out
I had to find my spirit
I know it's always the darkest before the light appears
The light appears