#sabotage Video (MV)

I can't tell if I been dreaming or if I'm awake
I can't tell if I love you or if I'm just afraid
I been sipping serotonin
Building up a tolerance
So I don't know if I can do this anymore
If I can do this anymore
If I can do this anymore
If I can do this anymore
Sabotaging myself through pushing you away
It's too good to be true, so couldn't stay with you
How much would it take to take me away
Tell me how can I erase all the memories since you
I don't got the words to assert why I cursed ya
We can't make this work, nah, I'm always gon' curve ya
I do not deserve what you're worth; I'll desert ya
We can't make this work
No, it's always gon' hurt ya
I'm always gonna hurt you
Why am I always gonna-
F*ck
Why'm I always gonna-
Every thought is haunted by her face
(By her face)
Smoke it till emotion go away
(Go away)
Tell me that I'll find somebody else
Tell me they could make me feel the same
(Feel the same)
On the way to L.A. on my own
(On my own, yeah)
Met a lot a fakes along the road
(Along the road, yeah)
Wish I knew the people I could trust, but
(Who to trust?)
I guess I'll never know until I'm old
('till I'm old)
I can't tell if I been dreaming or if I'm awake
I can't tell if I love you or if I'm just afraid
I been sipping serotonin
Building up a tolerance
So I don't know if I can do this anymore
If I can do this anymore
If I can do this anymore
If I can do this anymore
I don't give a f*ck I rather push you away
I don't need your love I got some drugs I could take
No, I don't want nobody close to me
I need be alone
Lemme sabotage myself and O.D. slowly in my room
I can not tell who a homie, who a phony, who my clone
In this life ain't nothing for me
What's the only thang to do?
There's a demon in the corner of my room
Following me in dreams
She all I see, and all I feel, she all I think about too
Tell me why she look like you?
Do you take me for a fool?
Did you paint over my soul?
And what color did you use?
Did you use a shade of blue?
Did you leave me any room?
'Cause uh, uh, 'cause I love you
I'm sorry that I ain't shit
Sorry I ain't make it to the A list
Sorry all I do is get faded
Sorry that I wasn't thinkin' 'bout you when I made this
I'm sorry that I leave that shit on read; I never say shit
Sorry I ain't felt shit
Sorry all I'm tryna do is sell shit
Sorry I'm so muhf*ckin' selfish
I'm sorry that I ain't shit
I said I'm sorry that I ain't shit