Barely Video (MV)

Breathe in
A long sleeve, faded white
Breathe out
A jump scare, unholy night
Dive in
Missing teeth and old taboos
Now sink
Fantasizing leaves a bruise
And I'm scared
Of everything I'll never know
And I can't
Ever just absorb the blow
I think back:
The thrill of trying something new
So small
I thought I could lean into you, but
I'm barely breathing as it is
An unrepentant narcissist
I know
Eyes closed
Are you seeing what I see?
A dirt road
Leading you away from me
I'll wait
Though I'm too proud to ever beg,
"Pick me,
Then let me live inside your head."
Cause I'm barely breathing as it is
(Tell me what I am tell me what I am)
Some solipsistic masochist
(Tell me what I am tell me what I am)
I know
Tell me what I am and what I'm not
Tell me what I am and what I'm not
Tell me what I am and what I'm not
I need to know
Lie down
In the snow where no one sees
A silk gown
Draped across an effigy
Unburned
Much too sour, brutal, beat
And I learned
There's more than I care to eat, so
Come find me bloodied as I am
(Tell me what I am tell me what I am)
There's something sacred in the plan
(Tell me what I am tell me what I am)
I know
Tell me what I am and what I'm not
Tell me what I am and what I'm not
Tell me what I am and what I'm not
I need to know