Escape Artist - Catatonic Lyrics

Time is more elastic than I bargained for
And opening my dry eyes
I'm catatonic with wanting more
Remembering the time
I threw up on your bathroom floor
Ignoring all the signs
And if there's a punishment I adore
It's making myself cry
It's watching all my love die
My craving makes me dizzy, so I think
Tonight
I'll consider splitting my lip right beside the bathroom sink
I'll swallow all my sorrys
Am I on the brink?
I realize I'll know nothing when I'm grown
And sorrow tastes much sweeter on my own
And there's a swelling in solitude
That makes me wonder who I am
My mourning sickness is misconstrued
But could you try to understand?
If there's one thing I'd hate to do
It's build a gurney in the sand
It's feign idolatry heals the wound
It's tell a story I can't stand
I'll suffer by my own hand
And my craving makes me dizzy, so I think
Tonight
I'll consider splitting my lip right beside the bathroom sink
I'll swallow all my sorrys
Am I on the brink?
I realize I'll know nothing when I'm grown
And sorrow tastes much sweeter
Don't you know I hate everyone?
Can you remind me of your name?
I stitch my wounds, though I'm not numb
Everything feels the same
And how I love declaring blame
I don't know what I'm hoping for
No one leads the way
I'm catatonic, and I want more
I wish you'd go away
I'll hurt myself on stage
And I'll get better every day