Watching from the window
Thought there was nothing outside
Worth getting caught up in
Closed my eyes and I tried just to sleep it off
What a stubborn young bride
I breathe in but my lungs don't fill
Like they used to, untied
So little oxygen
I'll just take it in stride
Hold onto it while I unlearn my instinct to hide
When did I agree to be one thing forever?
To sever myself from my life and deliver
A happy-go-lucky-go-break-my-wrists forgiver
Hold you through it all?
I never said I'd be easy
I never thought I'd be fine
I never saw myself healing
I was having an ok time
Doubting anything perfect
Keeping everyone scared
In my own control drama
Feeling naked and unprepared
To let it go