Didn't I Give My Best Video (MV)

I might skip work today
Almost 9 o'clock, hitting snooze
Until I can muster up some words to say
Else I'll probably end up quitting too
Trying to cry so I can feel something
Rather fill the numb up with the pain
I want to show you what I'm hiding from ya
I don't know if I can make it plain
To crawl and hide away
So what difference does it make
The tallest tidal waves
Topple everything, washed away
Everything I work for
The world just tell me work more, and work more, and work more
My skin is getting thinner than it once was
The words hurt more
Nothing's guaranteed and that's for sure
The pursuit of happiness, I search for it
They wanna peek inside behind my closed doors
Kick them down like search warrants, I really ought to open more
The devil got my number, I cannot afford
To sell my soul, go down below, oh almighty lord
I pray I Everlast this House of Pain, no Whitey Ford
Don't get it twisted, I don't break and I do not contort
And I will not conform, I'm knocking lock your doors
In case you had forgot, my pen is mightier than sword
Looking back and now they salty, Sodom and Gomorrah
I have the toughest time deciding what's worth fighting for
My record skips when It plays
If you know me then this isn't news
You tell me that I need a change
But I would rather sit and sing the blues
Trying to cry so I can feel something
Rather fill the numb up with the pain
I want to show you what I'm hiding from ya
I don't know if I can make it plain
To crawl and hide away
So what difference does it make
The tallest tidal waves
Topple everything, washed away
Life is suffering, suffering and suffering
Taste the canvas but get up again
Try your best to get the upper hand
And lose a little piece of yourself trying to understand
And I'm sorry mister preacher man
But you ain't got the answers that I need, I need to seek within
Tried to talk to god, no luck with reaching him
I see no reason pleading neither, need you and you plead the fifth
I walked through pouring rain
I felt everything
This what you wanted for me?
Didn't I treat you right now?
Didn't I do the best I could?
Didn't I do the best I can?
You say otherwise
Say that I'm the lesser man
Well you should look inside