How Could I Ever Video (MV)

Where do I begin
There ain't nothing in this world to help me win
I keep pushing, but nothings moving
And I can hear the devil calling out my name
It gets harder when I ain't sober
That's why I'm drinking every day until it's over
And my thoughts run wild inside my head
But I push 'em to the side to breathe instead
And how could I ever
Turn these broken dreams into something real please tell me
How could I ever
Make my momma proud so I don't have to tell her that I tried
Oh I tried
I tried to help myself but I fell short
When the sun goes down
No use in fighting
All these demons in my mind come uninvited
And people will say they love you
Till their needs are met they'll stab you then deceive you
I feel used and almost empty
Yeah I'm working on my life
But earning pennies
And how could I ever
Turn these broken dreams into something real please tell me
How could I ever
Make my momma proud so I don't have to tell her that I tried
Oh I tried
I tried to help myself but I fell short