EVD - Carpe Diem Lyrics

It's not the first time
When I suffer the defeat
That life just puts me
Right down on my knees
Those people saying
That this are just the lines
But even whiteness
Turns to the space without the stars

Now that's enough
It's time to change
All of my thoughts
That full of rage
Doubts overcomes
Still not only the desire
Just only lock
Will be opened if I'll try
Until that day, until I die
I will live by crucifying myself
Since I won't get
Those three keys from happy end
It tears me open
Like I'm bleed
Without the pieces that I need
This cries are shouting in my mind
So I can not sleep at night
I am a blacksmith
But horseshoes makes no sense
Always on backseat
Without another chance
Wrong constellation
At the moment I was born
The worst frustration
When at the start all hope has gone
The taste of luck
For me does not exist
I won't give up
The circumstance I must resist
The will in the fist
Which is another key
The optimism
The one thing that I need

Until that day, until I die
I will live by crucifying myself
Since I won't get
Those three keys from happy end
It tears me open
Like I'm bleed
Without the pieces that I need
This cries are shouting in my mind
So I can not sleep at night
Despite all this I am the fire
I have the reasons to burn brighter
I have one question
But I don't have an answer
And I guess you're the one who understand
That hypocrisy kills me like a knife
When a word of the support is just an empty sound
You're not okay with my beginnings, my successes, my achievements,
You're trying to pull me down
Pouring the salt right on my wound
So let it be, I don't give a hell
I'll do it the way I want it myself
Your words are just a lie
I feel it when the angels cry
Won't stop me, you're have no rights
I know there will be more fights
At this stage, I see right through
My friends, my enemies and who is who
So F*ck this, I will say one thing
F*ck you all, I won't give in
I will build my world
I'll create my own
I'll find my star that'll show my way to home
I went too far
I can not stop
I have to defeat my demons inside
I'll create my truth
And no matter how
I won't let the devil to fool with my mind
As wisdom comes
I see more reasons
To do what I want and enjoy my freedom