Ex Husband - Paradise Lyrics

I guess I was enticed,
To rebuild paradise
I never ever thought twice,
I only thought you of those nights
Instead of seeking help
I just kept reinventing myself
Is it truly paradise,
If it's built on compromise?
I'm too stressed to be blessed
Too depressed for success
Delirious and fully deranged
I was curiously not afraid
Measuring growth is hard at this age
I'll be proud of what I didn't say
It took time for me to realize
You were never meant to be mine
But I wanted to know you better
I just wanted more time together
I'm too stressed to be blessed
Too obsessed with the meaningless
Was i always so deranged?
Guess I always felt short-changed
Measuring growth is hard at this age
I'll be proud that I didn't cave
I could be what you need
If you would only let me
I could be the man of your dreams
I could do that in my sleep
Delirious and fully deranged
I was curiously not afraid
Measuring growth is hard at this age
I'll be proud of what I didn't say
Was I always so deranged?
Guess I always felt short-changed
Measuring growth is hard at this age
I'll be proud of that I didn't cave