Lights off
Turn them on again
I'm not ready to tell you
That I have reached my end
I promised you that I would always be there
No matter what I would be there
Until you were gone, I would be there
But no
I'm lost
Never to be found again
I run in circles in my mind to outrun the end
But I can feel myself go
I try so hard to just hold
Just for one minute more
To feel just like before
I had so much to fix
So much to do
So much to see
So much to be
I was feeling like
I was on the verge of reaching
What I always have been chasing
But I've never succeeded before
But now the rug was pulled from under me
And all the time
I thought I had
It was just a lie
I told myself
To make me forget about
Suddenly
I feel so desperate
I've lost myself in this
And I feel like I'm alone
Suddenly
I hear my heartbeat in my head
And I keep holding my breath
Fearing the next one is the last
I feel afraid of what you'll do
When I'm not here anymore
I wish that i could help you mourn
How you will feel holding the phone
And I won't answer your call
Hold your both hands through it all
Were it up to me I'd never leave
So I could always be there
I'm not scared for myself anymore
I am tired of this wait
Make it stop
Make
Make it stop
There's no numbers on my watch
No more sand in the hourglass
I wish I could open my eyes
And just realize this isn't real
But on the other hand, what I have
Is all the joy and the good memories
Without you to share everything with
Nothing would have been worth it
You gave me life
You made my life
This is not the end
Not the end of me
This is not the end
The face of death
Is not a face at all
It's only darkness
It's just a void
All is gone
I can't close my eyes
Or i will be pulled in too deep
And like a ship I will sink below
To never see the light
The darkness around me
Is taking over the world
And I have nowhere to go
It's like I'm stuck to the floor
A place I have been before
I want to escape but I'm lost
I'm not supposed leave
I'm supposed to understand
That this is the end
And I will never see you again
But how can I leave now
When I promised I'd be around
I cannot to let you down
I caused enough tears
Throughout all of our years
I fed your fears
Said things that you never ever had to hear
This is all my fault
What you are going through
And this pain is the only thing I ever gave to you
And I would take it back
But now it's too late
All my time is gone
It cannot be undone
This is not goodbye
I
I'm not ready
I'm not ready
To die