Explicit - Lurkin' Lyrics

I'm in the dark, demons are lurkin
I feel torn apart, can't see my own purpose
Can't feel my heart, my feelings aren't workin
Wanna go far, but I feel like I'm worthless
I think that I'm crazy, I'm going insane
Don't care if you hate me, I smile I at pain
Won't keep you waiting, there's nothing to save
Each day I keep breaking, I'm changing from pain

I'm hatin the light, I'm in love with the dark
Guess it only makes sense when you don't have a heart
I can't seem to hide, so I'm drinking on sparks
I don't know why I try, it just ends when it starts
Mind has been set to be filled with regrets
I keep losin my breath like I'm beggin for death
Only thing that I'll bet on is pussy ass threats
Put the blade to your neck then it's off with ya head

Said my words are so deep
That they cut like a razor
While they're all watching me bleed
I wanna be someone's savior
F*ck this shit I'm quitting I'm not gonna miss this
I'm kidding just kidding but not really get this
I write what I'm feeling to get out this message
That You're not alone but I am hope you get it

I'm in the dark with my demons, just lurkin
I feel torn apart, what's reason for purpose
I can't feel my heart, all my feelings arent workin
I wanna go far but I feel like I'm worthless
Think that I'm crazy, I'm going insane
I don't care if you hate me, I smile I at pain
Whatch em stare and degrade me, but I feel the same
Every day I keep breaking, I'm changing from pain

I told death if he needs me I'll pick up the call
Don't you love when I bleed and paint blood on the walls
If you've seen what I've seen you'd faint stumble and fall
Don't believe me then see me and feel your skin crawl
My demons are dreamin but we are all damned
All I hear is the screaming I can't take your hand
Need somebody to free me to leave from this land
Watch me die every season my bloods on my hands

Where am I at? I do not know
Each night that pasts, my darkness grows
Dear sky I ask; where do I go?
The clouds I'm past, I feel so low
Each time I die, I feel alive
I'm cold as ice, look in my eyes
I'm numb inside, where I reside
I say I'm fine, but I just lied