Faded Winds - Joyisgone Lyrics

I feel like I'm locked in a room with all my feelings
I'm trying to find joy, but shes not appearing
I lost her a long time ago when I started lying, and telling her I didn't need her
Man was I wrong, I was just ungrateful
I looked on the pavement and saw a handful, of, ants
Working together, unlike me and you they were pretty clever
I guess its my fault though, cause I thought I had it
I didn't think I needed anyone, but myself
I wish I had someone like you
I've just got anger, and now hes throwing things all over the room