Falling In Reverse - Popular Monster Album Lyrics

Dear diary, dear diary
I've been searching for a higher me
I'm in the sky, in the pilot's seat, trying to stop my mind from spiraling
And that's irony, that's irony
I'm just looking for a resolution, I just want to be a better human
But it's hard when everybody's acting stupid
Pardon me if that came off rude, I just have a bad attitude
With the world and not just with you, it's the side effects of abuse
I admit I'm a little strange, I don't think that I'll ever change
I survived a whole life of pain, you could say I escaped my fate

I'm a cynical, egotistical, unpredictable, hardened criminal
And I can be a little hypocritical, but I'll admit it straight to your face
I'm unbreakable, irreplaceable, undeniably inspirational
I used everything I had available to make me the person I am today

Dear diary, dear diary
I just had another wild dream
I was in a world that admired me, and when I woke up I was smiling
And that's irony, that's irony
You talk a lot but you don't even know me
I'm just hoping that my testimony will inspire y'all to stop acting phony
Pardon me if that came off weird, I don't mean to be mean, I swear
I have been through a lot this year, I just want to make a few things clear
I don't like it when people hate behind my back and not to my face
Nowadays it just feels so fake, so I'll cut the grass to expose the snakes

I'm unstoppable, it's impossible
You don't wanna see the diabolical side of me that never stops, is volatile
So I suggest you stay in your lane
I'm unapologetic, you know where it's headed
I will never ever let up off the pedal
I got the spirit of every warrior in me ever, so back the f*ck up, get out my face

You're a slave to labor and you praise the fascist
You kiss the hand that takes half in taxes
Faking outrage and being seen, a generation with no self-esteem
It's time to rise up and stand against them, break the chains and finally see the vision
We're post-traumatic from a broken system
Follow me into the chaos engine

It's time to stand, it's time to fight
Don't be afraid to twist the knife
Your sacrifice to break the curse
Prepare to die, prepare to burn
Abandon hope, it's not enough
'Cause all our gods abandoned us
Your sacrifice to break the curse
Light the match, watch it burn

Heaven falls, the angels die
Let it burn from the start
When everything falls apart

When everything falls apart (why have you forsaken me?)
When everything falls apart (heavy is the crown, you see)
When everything falls apart (why have you forsaken me?)
When everything falls apart (heavy is the crown, you see)
When everything falls apart
When everything falls apart

Yeah

I wake up every morning with my head up in a daze
I'm not sure if I should say this, f*ck, I'll say it anyway
Everybody tries to tell me that I'm going through a phase
I don't know if it's a phase, I just wanna feel okay, yeah
I battle with depression, but the question still remains
Is this post-traumatic stressin' or am I suppressing rage?
And my doctor tries to tell me that I'm going through a phase
Yeah, it's not a f*cking phase, I just wanna feel okay, okay
Yeah, I struggle with this bullshit everyday
And it's probably 'cause my demons simultaneously rage
It obliterates me, disintegrates me, annihilates me

'Cause I'm about to break down, I'm searching for a way out
I'm a liar, I'm a cheater, I'm a non-believer
I'm a popular, popular monster
I break down, falling into love now with falling apart
I'm a popular, popular monster

I think I'm going nowhere like a rat trapped in a maze
Every wall that I knock down is just a wall that I replace
I'm in a race against myself I try to keep a steady pace
How the f*ck will I escape if I never close my case?
Oh my God, I keep on stressin', every second that I waste
Is another second sooner to a blessing I won't take
But my therapist will tell me that I'm going through a stage
Yeah, it's not a f*cking stage, I just wanna feel okay
Okay, motherf*cker, now you got my attention
I need to change a couple things 'cause something is missin'
And what if I were to lie, tell you everything is fine?
Every single f*cking day I get closer to the grave
I am terrified, I fell asleep at the wheel again
Crashed my car just to feel again
It obliterates me, disintegrates me, annihilates me

'Cause I'm about to break down, I'm searching for a way out
I'm a liar, I'm a cheater, I'm a non-believer
I'm a popular, popular monster
I break down, falling into love now with falling apart
I'm a popular, popular f*cking monster

Yeah
Yeah, here we go again, motherf*cker, oh

We're sick and tired of wondering
Praying to a God that you don't believe
We're searching for the truth in the lost and found
So the question I ask is, oh, where the f*ck is your god now?

'Cause I'm about to break down, I'm searching for a way out
I'm a liar, I'm a cheater, I'm a non-believer
I'm a popular, popular monster
I break down, falling into love now with falling apart
I'm a popular, popular monster

I'm a liar, I'm a cheater, I'm a non-believer
I'm a popular, popular monster

[Ronnie Radke]
Yeah, I've been high and low
I've been sober, I've been faded
Searching for my love in all the wrong places
Word up on the streets is I got a bad reputation
Yeah, I may have drew blood, but that was true love

Get a stroke of bad luck everywhere I look
Every time I go right, everything goes wrong
And I self-destruct when I'm close to love
So someone save my soul, because

[Ronnie Radke]
All my life I've f*cked up and I can't deny
I'm doing my bеst to get it together-gеther-gether (Woo-hoo)
If I told you once, I told you a million times
I just can't live like this forever-ever-ever (Woo-hoo)
Jelly Roll

[Jelly Roll]
Yeah, I've been up and down
I've been through hell and back
I've had my share of drama
Baby, please cut me some slack
I know you wanna get through to me
But I am my worst enemy, yeah
I may have drew blood, but that was true love

[Ronnie Radke]
Get a stroke of bad luck everywhere I look
Every time I go right, everything goes wrong
And I self-destruct when I'm close to love
Better buckle down, giddy-up, here we go, because

All my life I've f*cked up and I can't deny
I'm doing my best to get it together-gether-gether (Woo-hoo)
If I told you once, I told you a million times
I just can't live like this forever-ever-ever (Woo-hoo)

Forever-ever-ever (Woo-hoo)

Go
Giddy-up
Yee-haw

[Jelly Roll & Ronnie Radke]
All my life I've f*cked up and I can't deny
I'm doing my best to get it together-gether-gether (Woo-hoo)
If I told you once, I told you a million times
I just can't live like this forever-ever-ever (Woo-hoo)
I can't live like this forever
All my life I've f*cked up and I can't deny
I'm doing my best to get it together-gether-gether (Woo-hoo)
I just can't live like this forever
I told you once, I told you a million times
I just can't live like this forever-ever-ever (Woo-hoo)

Once upon a time, everything was alright
I used to feel safe, not a worry in sight
Then I grew up, quickly realized
The world is a f*cked up place sometimes
Death is at your door
Reaching in from the other side
It's time to cut the cord
Hangin' on like a parasite, go
Ah, hangin' on like a parasite
Hangin' on like a parasite

Don't hesitate, you're hangin' on for your life
Don't hesitate, you're reachin' out from the light
Walking on a razor's edge
My blood runs black, I'm not your friend
F*ck

Pull from the depths of the thirty-six chambers
Ah-ah, pull the trigger, give a bullet to a stranger, nice
Ah, pull from the depths of the thirty-six chambers
Pull the trigger, give a bullet to a stranger

I don't wanna die (die), but I'm not gonna live
In a place so cold, in a world like this (this)
Crucify me (me), it's blasphemy
Throw me in the fire, let me burn for eternity (go, go, go, go)
Burn for eternity, eternity
I'll never be the one that'll ever back down
Never turn around and run
Never, never, never back down

Deep into the trench of a place unknown
Lies a dead man clutched to the bottom of a throne
At the bottom of a hole that nobody wants to go
It's the devil that you know that's gotta hold up on your wicked soul (damn)

When they're summin' your mind and you're thinkin' the devil is makin' the crime
And the people are evil and never no demon designing the opposite of a divine? No
Yes, the hell is in front of you, side and behind
I can feel every sign of a human decline
I'm believin' the time is upon us when all of our people are blind, yo
Red rain, saw it fallin' from a tower's dead plane
Head bang, mandalay bay hotel on a lead cane
Sex change could get you caught up in death's reign
She plead sane but really imitating Ed Gein
How did we get this way? Negative shit to say when we get this way
Havin' a fit today so they wanna make a bitch decay
My son's mom went gone, I was really wrong, I thought I was gone
I vomit so shame for my son but I didn't go John Muhammad
So the devil's right here on this level wide tier
'Cause when rebels ready to pop the heavy metal I fear (yeah)
Abomination, babin' fakin', consecration hatin', wastin' education
Got the killer, wanna kill 'em, gotta chase 'em, go

Go

Spiraling out of control and deeper down the rabbit hole
Never gonna let them get the most of what they'll have to resurrect
You're sick to death, better take me down
I don't give a f*ck, this is disgrace to God (no, no, no, no)
Yeah
Never gonna let them get the most of what they'll have to resurrect
So I don't give a f*ck, this is disgrace to God

The voices in my head keep on telling me to pray
'Cause I'm spinning like a carousel, circling the drain
Hit the bottom of the bottle, I don't wanna feel the pain
But that is all I got for now, I don't wanna talk about it
The voices in my head keep on begging me to stay
If I pull the trigger now then the demons go away
And I know my time is coming so there ain't no time to waste
So that is all I got for now, I don't wanna talk about it

The voices in my head keep telling me to choose a side
It's heaven or hell like it's do or die
I'm a sad boy, you know better
Please don't make this last forever

The voices in my head keep telling me I'm not okay
It's feeling like a hurricane in my brain
Dark clouds, hard times, bad weather
Please don't make this last forever

The voices in my head keep telling me I'm gonna (die)
And I don't wanna talk about the drama, I'm trauma (tized)
They're tellin' me I'm fine but we both know that's a f*ckin' (lie)
I'm losing my mind but I don't wanna talk about it

The voices in my head keep giving me the worst advice
Kamikaze crash like a suicide
I'm a lost boy, you know better
Please don't make this last forever

The voices in my head keep telling me I'm insane
And maybe I'm a little bit, that won't change
Dark clouds, hard times, bad weather
Please don't make this last forever

The voices in my head keep telling me I'm gonna (die)
And I don't wanna talk about the drama, I'm trauma (tized)
They're tellin' me I'm fine but we both know that's a f*ckin' (lie)
I'm losing my mind but I don't wanna talk about

The voices in my head keep telling me I'm cursed
I'm paranoid, I don't wanna make it any worse
We're all gonna die but first things first
I'ma take the world with me when they put me in the dirt
The voices in my head keep telling me I'm cursed
I'm paranoid, I don't wanna make it any worse
We're all gonna die but first things first
I'ma take the world with me when they put me in the dirt

Move
(Move)
Voices in my head keep telling me I'm cursed
I'm paranoid, I don't wanna make it any worse
We're all gonna die, first things first
I'ma take the world with me when they put me in the dirt

The voices in my head keep telling me I'm gonna (die)
And I don't wanna talk about the drama, I'm trauma (tized)
They're tellin' me I'm fine but we both know that's a f*ckin' (lie)
I'm losing my mind but I don't wanna talk about it

The voices in my head keep on telling me to pray
'Cause I'm spinning like a carousel, circling the drain
Hit the bottom of the bottle, I don't wanna feel the pain
I'm losing my mind but I don't wanna talk about it

[Ronnie Radke]
I'm the bad guy, I'm a savage
I'm obsessive, I'm dramatic
I'm a loner, I'm an addict
I'm so goddamn problematic
I'm the bad guy, I'm a loser
I'm a psycho, believe the rumors
I got bad thoughts, I got bad vibes
I don't act right, it's nice to meet you

'Cause I'm the bad guy, I got baggage
I am f*cked up, I am damaged
My opinions, you're offended
I'm an asshole, stop pretending

I'm the bad guy, they're calling me crazy
I'm feeling it lately, I think that I may be
'Cause I'm the bad guy, they're calling me shady
I feel like I'm changing, I feel like I'm changing

'Cause I'm the bad guy, I'm a savage
I'm obsessive, I'm dramatic
I'm a loner, I'm an addict
I'm so goddamn problematic
I'm the bad guy, I'm a loser
I'm a psycho, believe the rumors
I got bad thoughts, I got bad vibes
I don't act right, it's nice to meet you
[Ronnie Radke]
I'm the bad guy, you're pathetic
F*ck your feelings, there, I said it
If I'm a loser and you don't like me
I dropped a pin now, come and try me

And I'm the bad guy, they're calling me crazy
I'm feeling it lately, I think that I may be
'Cause I'm the bad guy, they're calling me shady
I feel like I'm changing, I feel like I'm changing

'Cause I'm the bad guy, I'm a savage
I'm obsessive, I'm dramatic
I'm a loner, I'm an addict
I'm so goddamn problematic
I'm the bad guy, I'm a loser
I'm a psycho, believe the rumors
I got bad thoughts, I got bad vibes
I don't act right, it's nice to meet you

'Cause I'm the bad guy, and life is tragic
The walls are padded
Or maybe I'm just melodramatic
It's a rare condition, it's self-inflicted
Get me out of my head

[Saraya]
He's the bad guy, he's a savage
He's obsessive, he's dramatic
He's a loner, he's an addict
He's so goddamn problematic

'Cause I'm the bad guy, I'm a loser
I'm a psycho, believe the rumors
I got bad thoughts, I got bad vibes
I don't act right, it's nice to meet you
'Cause I'm the bad guy, I'm a savage
I'm obsessive, I'm dramatic
I got bad thoughts, I got bad vibes
I don't act right, it's nice to meet you

Yeah, I got voices in my head again, tread carefully
And I don't medicate, it helps me temporarily
I got problems, I got issues, yeah, apparently
Trauma that I'm burying, I think I need some therapy
I battle depression, I'm back with a message
I'm asking the question that if you hate me
Why you acting obsessive?
I'm past the point of no return, f*ck being passive aggressive
I'll brandish a weapon, teach all you motherf*ckers a lesson, yeah
I actually battle my demons and shadows
They swim in the deep and they creep in the shallows, I'm lost
I gotta admit that I'm living the life
That I've always wanted but it comes at a cost (yeah)
They're licking their chops, they're fixing to rip me a part
I'm swimming with sharks, I'm lifting the bar
I'm lifting it into the stars
I'm like a shot of adrenaline mixed with some Ritalin
Started a battle, but bitch, I'ma finish it
You think you can stop me, not even a little bit
Nowadays everybody's so sensitive
Taking my words and you pick it apart
Tripping on nothing, just get in the car
Gripping and ripping I'm sticking the mark
I'm tipping the ch-ch-ch-ch-ch-ch-charts
'Cause I got enemies trying to get rid of me
Evil tendencies are f*cking with me mentally
I got people that don't like me in the industry
I can feel your energy, you are not a friend to me
'Cause I have been to places that you never wanna go, yeah
I got dirt on people but they act like I don't know, yeah
I could do some damage but I'll never rock the boat
All it takes is one post, watch 'em fall like dominoes
You'll never get rid of me, too many mini-me's ripping my imagery
You know my history, it ain't a mystery
Put every enemy outta they misery
Somebody send me some positive energy
About to go Darth, I'm 'bout to go Disney
Into the darkness, into infinity
And shut you motherf*ckers up, you listening?
Stacking every little pretty penny that I'm getting
And I'm never giving in to anybody, always winning
Never kidding when I die, I'm taking everybody with me 'cause
You're never gonna get me, 'cause you'll never see it simply
I'm a motherf*cking god, you're a light yawn
I'm a time bomb and the vibes wrong, is this mic on?
I'm killing the syllables with a loaded refillable
I'm a lyrical typical supervillain, I'm venomous
And I'm never gonna stop until they put me on top of the list

I can't control the monster any longer that's inside

The pain and sorrow left us hollow
No tomorrows, hard to swallow
Death is calling, so appalling
Tightrope walking, now I'm falling down
Like missiles falling from the sky
Come and save us
The pain and sorrow left us hollow
Here today but gone tomorrow

The pain inside is the fuel that drives
This flesh and bone through blood red skies (hahaha)
The death defying, hypnotizing
One day you're gonna figure out
That everything they taught you was a lie
Watch the world burn

The fear keeps you alive
Break the f*cking chains, take back your life
The fear is what keeps you insane
Break the f*cking chains, take away the pain

We're the land of the free, we're the home of the brave
Freedom of speech, that's what they say

(One) we're taking a stand
(Two) we're making demands
(Three) we're protecting the children
(Four) we got blood on our hands

(Damn) this is irrelevant
But you keep backing that shit for the hell of it
And you keep acting like you don't got skeletons
Up in your closet that you don't want dwelling in
(Damn) we're pushing the narrative
Aren't you proud to be an American?
(Damn) there's nowhere to run, nowhere to hide
Bombs away, kiss it goodbye

(Hey) stand down or fall like the rest of them
(Hey) we're one nation under oblivion
I don't want drama (yeah)
But I'm gonna say what I wanna (yeah)
There's nowhere to run, nowhere to hide
Bombs away, kiss it goodbye
Kiss it goodbye

You pledge your allegiance
Into the unknown
Trust in your leaders
Bow to the throne

(One) resistance is futile
(Two) comply if you can
(Three) trust in your government
(Four) we got blood on our hands

(Damn) this is irrelevant
But you keep backing that shit for the hell of it
And you keep acting like you don't got skeletons
Up in your closet that you don't want dwelling in
(Damn) we're pushing the narrative
Aren't you proud to be an American?
(Damn) there's nowhere to run, nowhere to hide
Bombs away, kiss it goodbye

(Hey) stand down or fall like the rest of them
(Hey) we're one nation under oblivion
I don't want drama (yeah)
But I'm gonna say what I wanna (yeah)
There's nowhere to run, nowhere to hide
Bombs away, kiss it goodbye

(Hey) stand down or fall like the rest of them
(Hey) we're one nation under oblivion
I don't want drama (yeah)
But I'm gonna say what I wanna (yeah)
There's nowhere to run, nowhere to hide
Bombs away, kiss it goodbye
Kiss it goodbye

(Zombified)

The monsters aren't living under your bed
'Cause they are the voices in your head
Zombified by the lies they've said
We've become the walking dead

'Cause everybody's talking, bitch
Oh no, they'll never let go
Of something you said ten years ago
They're cancelling, cancelling you
And they won't stop 'til everybody's

Zombified
They're pumping us with lies like it's formaldehyde
They're dead inside
It goes on and on
Let this go
When it stops we'll never know
We're hypnotized
And they won't stop 'til you're
Zombified

You better shut your mouth and bite your tongue
'Cause you don't wanna piss off anyone
We're traumatized by the damage done
Welcome to America

'Cause everybody's talking, bitch
Oh no, they'll never let go
Of something you said ten years ago
They're cancelling, cancelling you
And they won't stop 'til everybody's

Zombified
They're pumping us with lies like it's formaldehyde
They're dead inside
It goes on and on
Let this go
When it stops we'll never know
We're hypnotized
And they won't stop 'til you're
(Zombified) Go!

They're feeding off your broken mind
They won't die, they multiply
We've become so f*cking blind
They won't stop 'til you're
Zombified
Pick it up
Oh, oh

Now everybody's zombified
They're pumping us with lies like it's formaldehyde
They're dead inside
It goes on and on
Let this go
When it stops we'll never know
We're hypnotized

And they won't stop 'til you're
They won't stop 'til I'm
They won't stop 'til we're all
Zombified

(Zombified)

Nowadays, people are too afraid
'Cause saying what's on your mind's like stepping on a landmine
Nowadays, people have gotten worse
I'm thinking we need to purge, 'cause the world's in a decline
Obsessed, everybody is stressed
Everybody's a slave, everybody's oppressed
Like nowadays, people are too afraid
Of saying what's on your mind 'cause the world's in a flatline

Yeah, they wanna call me a nuisance
Just because I'm not afraid of giving my two cents, it's stupid
They try to tell me I'm ruthless
'Cause I respond back to all the rudeness you spit, it's abusive
I never claimed to be a rapper, you did
I never woke up and chose violence, it's useless
Homie, if the shoe fits, then prove it
You do a lot of talking, but you're not gonna do shit
My fuse lit, you just made my shit to-do list
When you push me past the point of no return, I'm ruthless
Like, "Ooh, shit," I'm the Exorcist of music
'Cause I got so many f*cking heads spinning, it's stupid
Like who's this?
Bitch, I'm the one you excluded
You wanna talk about equality, but I'm not included
I think it's funny and ironic, and it's pretty amusing
You proved my whole point by this chorus I'm doing, it's like

Nowadays, people are too afraid
'Cause saying what's on your mind's like stepping on a landmine
Nowadays, people have gotten worse
I'm thinking we need to purge, 'cause the world's in a decline
Obsessed, everybody is stressed
Everybody's a slave, everybody's oppressed
Like nowadays, people are too afraid
Of saying what's on your mind 'cause the world's in a flatline

And while we're on the subject of this
I got a couple things I wanna get off of my chest
I don't mind when a band sees another success and gets inspired
It's the copying I cannot respect
And you can go to my label, my director, my producer
But you'll never get that magic at the level I do it
You motherf*ckers keep on actin' like I never influenced an entire generation
I'm the antithesis to it
You went from rock to rap, but I did that first
You went from rap back to rock 'cause the rap didn't work, that's worse
You're acting like you never heard of me, homie
But everybody that I know truly knows you're bologna
And people throwin' accusations at me, knowin' it's phony
Just to get a reaction out me 'cause they're bored and they're lonely
If only I could've told what I know, being forty
To the younger me, then this would've been a different story because

Nowadays, people are too afraid
'Cause saying what's on your mind's like stepping on a landmine
Nowadays, people have gotten worse
I'm thinking we need to purge, 'cause the world's in a decline
Obsessed, everybody is stressed
Everybody's a slave, everybody's oppressed
Like nowadays, people are too afraid
Of saying what's on your mind 'cause the world's in a flatline

Suicidal thoughts got you tyin' knots
Got my rivals in denial 'til their f*ckin' vitals stop
There ain't a single person on this f*ckin' planet that can top
What I'm doin' with this music, I'm just waitin' for the drop, like

I, I'm just waitin' for that drop
Well, I wish a motherf*cker would tell me when to stop
My tunnel vision's got me feelin' like I'm in a prison
Walls are closin' in on me and I'm sick and tired of livin' in it
Ha, but every minute that I'm livin's like a mission
I'll admit it, but I'm grateful for that shit I'm given
Ha, 'cause it turned me to a monster
I just keep on getting stronger, I'm not waiting any longer
Either conquer every genre like I'm Genghis Khan or chop you like a helicopter
Into sixty pieces like I'm Jeffrey Dahmer

I'm goin' insane
There's somethin' that's wrong with my brain (brain, no)
I'm colder than a frozen lake (damn)
Death is a heartbeat away
Don't take advice from that motherf*ckin' antichrist
Back down, you don't wanna see the show (show)
Bloodbath 'cause you reaping what you sow (sow)
Think you know me, I promise you don't (no, no)
Step up, motherf*cker, let's go (ha, ha, woo)
And I know that you don't want the smoke (ghost)
F*ck around, end up a ghost (ghost)
Thinkin' you know me, you don't (don't)
F*ck out my face and you won't (won't)

Cut my life into pieces
This is my last resort
Suffocation, no breathing
Don't give a f*ck if I cut my arm, bleeding
This is my last resort

Cut my life into pieces
I've reached my last resort
Suffocation, no breathing
Don't give a f*ck if I cut my arm bleeding
Do you even care if I die bleeding?

Would it be wrong or it be right?
If I took my life tonight
Chances are that I might
Mutilation out of sight
And I'm contemplating suicide
I'm contemplating suicide

'Cause I'm losing my sight, losing my mind
Wish somebody would tell me I'm fine
Losing my sight, losing my mind
Wish somebody would tell me I'm fine
I am fine

I never realized I was spread too thin
'Til it was too late and I was empty within
Feeding on chaos and living in sin
Downward spiral, where do I begin?

It all started when I lost my mother
No love for myself and no love for another
To find a lover on a higher level
Finding nothing but questions and devils (devils, devils)

'Cause I'm losing my sight, losing my mind
Wish somebody would tell me I'm fine
Losing my sight, losing my mind
Wish somebody would tell me I'm fine
Nothing is fine

I'm crying, I'm crying
I'm crying, I'm crying

I can't go on living this way
I can't go on living this way

Cut my life into pieces
Cut my life into pieces (yeah)

'Cause I'm losing my sight, losing my mind
Wish somebody would tell me I'm fine
Losing my sight, losing my mind
Wish somebody would tell me I'm fine
Nothing is fine

I'm running and I'm crying
I'm running and I'm crying
I'm running and I'm crying
Nothing's alright