Fantasy - Better Off Lyrics

I tell myself I'm better off
I tell myself I'm better off here
I'm waiting here for you to call
But you never so I'm better off
I tell myself I'm better off
I tell myself I'm better off here
I'm waiting here for you to call
But you never so I'm better off
I tell myself I'm better off
Waiting here for you to call
Stuck inside my head that's why I drown myself in alcohol
See I used to want it all
Now I want someone to hold
F*cked up every girl I had and wrote over 100 songs
Now I see that I had it all wrong
I wish that I could tell her that but she built up a wall
Used to try to be that guy that I know everybody wants
Now when I go out I try to blend in like I'm camouflage
I tell myself I'm better off
I tell myself I'm better off here
I tell myself I'm better off
I tell myself I'm better off
I'm waiting here for you to call
But you don't ever do it oh
Oh oh
Uh
Pitch perfect my minds turning I'm uncertain
I wish that I could call her up and tell her what's hurting
Wish I had another chance to say I hope your well
I wanna open up my heart for you like show and tell
No this ain't what I thought I wanted no way
I didn't empty out my heart to fill it up with pain
I didn't try to use you but it ended up a waste
I hope you understand that I know this is on me
On me
I know everything is on me
Pressure on my neck hydraulic press is what is on me
I want show you all the moving pieces like a saw blade
If you cut me in half I'll show you what is deep beyond me
I've been thinking about a lot I got the tables turning
I wish I could try again, like I'm Timmy turner
I got everything I wanted, I know that I earned it
But I shouldn't make you feel like that don't deserve it
I tell myself I'm better off
I tell myself I'm better off here
I'm waiting here for you to call
But you never so I'm better off
I tell myself I'm better off
I tell myself I'm better off here
I'm waiting here for you to call
But you never so I'm better off
When you told me that your better off
Hoped I would forget it all
Now I've been so focused on you like I'm taking adderall
I don't really know why I'm talking, I already said too much
No I didn't do enough
Wish I never gave it up
I did everything I could but still I couldn't be enough
All the things you never had I really tried to bring you some
Tried to take away you problems but instead I brought more on
Now I ended up being exactly what you never want