Smile, smile, smile in their face
But they're not seein all this pain
Everything that I been through I've burried deep inside my being
And I hate what I've became
Carryin all this f*ckin weight
I take everyone I love and I just push them all away
I'm f*cked up I'm beyond repair and don't know where I'm goin
And I try to tell myself I'm alright but there's no denying I'm not
And I guess it's who I am I don't know what I'm fighting for
Every time that I get up I end up right back on the floor yeah
And I know it isn't real it don't change the way I feel
Try to block it out my mind but I think about it Still
Feels like nothin that I do will ever be enough to loose
All these feelings I'll just doubt myself forever I'm a loser
Voices swirl inside my mind
Trying to tell me what I'm not
I'm so Tired of this fight
Everything is Not alright
You won't ever be shit so take a look in the mirror
You try to push me away but Ima always be here
And I don't know if it's pain and I don't know if it's fear
But I know one thing for sure this shit is all that I hear
Yo Inside my mind let me take you in
I Feel the walls they're closin in
I'm f*cked up and it's no one's fault
I've been this way since a little kid
Got me paralyzed in a state of doubt
And I'm this close to just spazzin out
And deleting every song on this f*ckin tape
And starting over with a different sound
Yeah Yeah
And I know it isn't real it don't change the way I feel
Try to block it out my mind but I think about it Still
Feels like nothin that I do will ever be enough to loose
All these feelings I'll just doubt myself forever I'm a loser
Voices swirl inside my mind
Trying to tell me what I'm not
I'm so Tired of this fight
Everything is Not alright