Found in December - Anywhere but Here Lyrics

I used to long for the days of acceptance
Nowadays, I can't stand the feeling of affection
Surround myself with nobody but me
It gets crowded
All by myself, I'm alone but I doubt it

Everyone wants to help out but I'm a coward
I push everyone away because I'm too selfish to think
About anyone or anything
So selfishly, I sink
All by myself, I tip the bottle now I'm drowning

Blue neon lights on all four sides
With the Ceiling covered in cobwebs
And the mould claiming the room
But I never leave it
I confide in it
The demons under my bed know all of my secrets
Like the highlight orange wrapped around my neck
With the pitch black scripture embroidered into it
Holding my weight at the foot of my bed
And I'm ashamed of the attempt
So take me anywhere but here

I don't feel it anymore
I don't feel it anymore
I don't feel it anymore
I don't feel it
I don't feel it anymore
I don't feel it anymore

Exchange my thoughts for yours
And you'll see what it means to be defeated
And I'll see what it means to be happy