Am I awfully aloof today?
In the courtyard, I keep counting all my steps
Everybody's so comfortable
I want to join in but I'm biting my lips red
Wait for an empty space to squeeze myself into
Wanting a part of you
Creating my own ruse
It's brutal here
Maybe I'm not the type who can captivate a room
But maybe I still want to be exciting to you
I look into the mirrors to make sure I'm still here
So please don't let me disappear
I want to be invited to things
You head into a van and laugh and shut the door
My living room quiet's where I drop my bags
And when I think I hear a sounds there's only wind and floor
All of the ones who say they like me don't like me enough
To want me to show up
Or ask me "how are you?" enough
But I can't take my eyes off what I'm missing now
Maybe I'm not the type who can captivate a room
But maybe I still want to be exciting to you
I look into the mirrors to make sure I'm still here
So please don't let me disappear
And when I speak I don't hear echoes
And in the pick and choose I'm left so
Far behind the rest
I keep trying to call you back
And when I speak I don't hear echoes
And I'm the girl you'd just forget so
I follow and hope that one day I'll be wanted bad.
Maybe I'm not the type who can captivate a room
But maybe I still want to be exciting to you
I look into the mirrors to make sure I'm still here
So please don't let me disappear