Francisco Martin - hate you to love myself Lyrics

I think my "sorrys" got redundant
And I'm pretty sure I took the fun out of it
I'm to blame for the way that you look both ways when someone brings me up
'Cause I know I ruined what we started

Now that I'm alone in my brain I know what I've done
It's the way that I carry the shame, it f*cks me up

I was learning not to hate myself and I'm sorry for the way I broke you down
I was living in a perfect world
Here's to hoping it all works out
I was giving you the same excuses, but I'm trying how to change and figure it out
Looking back I know you didn't deserve it
I had to hate you to love myself

I think I'm making some improvements
(I think)
'Cause I finally saw that therapist
And he says I'm okay by the way that I don't turn away each time he brings you up
I'm getting better but the truth is

I was learning not to hate myself and I'm sorry for the way I broke you down
I was living in a perfect world
So here's to hoping it all works out
I was giving you the same excuses, but I'm trying how to change and figure it out
Looking back I know you didn't deserve it
I had to hate you to love myself

(Hate you to love myself)
(So don't hate me ?)

Now that I'm alone in my brain and I know what I've done
I remember that look on your face that f*cks me up

I was learning not to hate myself and I'm sorry for the way I broke you down
I was living in a perfect world
Here's to hoping it all works out
I was giving you the same excuses, but I'm trying how to change and figure it out
Looking back I know you didn't deserve it
I had to hate you to love myself

(Hate you to love myself)
I had to hate you to love myself