January, I hear you asking why
I've been sleeping through all your beauty
I know it doesn't feel like I've been here
Turning corners on winter mornings
I picture flowers, I see the lights in my photopsia
You're putting pressure on my eyelids
Me and my hummingbird mind
A feeling inside that takes me out of the moment
When spring starts to show
Does it get better with time
Am I learning to be alright, whatever the weather
February, you know I'm pushing through
All your days, only twenty-eight
But I know impatience
Flowers fake, so I search for something sweet
In the spring, I'll call myself a rebel, forcibly
Not today
Failing, flying backwards, unconsciously
A thought becomes a pattern, a face that I will remember
Me and my hummingbird mind
A feeling inside that takes me out of the moment
When spring starts to show
Does it get better with time
Am I learning to be alright, whatever the weather