Fully Involved - Gaslighting Lyrics

When we're shown all we can do if we believe
Then we're thrown once our minds allow us to grieve
A joke to ease the tension
I crave self-deprecation
"Of all you, I'm a fake" and
Anything to suspend this disbelief

Oh I been gaslighting
Gaslighting myself
Oh I been sense-fighting
And gaslighting my health

When she glows, next to me I need a relief
Cause I know, if I try I'll look like a creep
So what if she's been cordial
Though the score around her's choral
A crack in the dam of delusion or more'll
Only leave you in your bed in disbelief

Oh I been gaslighting
Gaslighting myself
Oh I been sense-fighting
And gaslighting my health