G X M B L E - Silhouette Lyrics

This is the one time that I was close to be gone
Yeah, This is how it begun
The first time that pills got me stun
The story of how my ex just saw me as a pawn
Playing chess with my mind just for fun
I've never felt something this strong before
Not finding the exit not know where to look for
In this shit called love I got no mentor
No one ever told me that I was falling for a whore
This ain't a rap about me showing my skill
I'm here to tell ya'll how it really feels
To get your heart broken and never heal
To feel useless like a car with no steering wheel
I thought our love could never be defeated
I was so stupid I was so conceited
Cause when you went with that guy and you cheated
That was the first time that I really felt depleted
So when I found out
I went to my room I start to scream and shout
Obsessive compulsive disorder cause my mind is full of doubt
I always gave my best to you so what the f*ck was that all about
Turns out that Like a hotel of our relantionship I had to check out
Maybe it was just for the trhill
Maybe I should eat a pill
My body asking to overfill
I try to resist but maybe I can't
Asking myself if love could really kill
I f*cking swear that the pills started to speak to me
Overdose solution seemed to be
Voices in my mind messing with my reality
So I look at the pills and give in
Embracing the devil within
My whole world starts to spin
I start to forget all the pain I live in
So I take 1
So I take 2
I took 1 2 3 4
I dropped to the floor
But still hungry for more
An evil creature starts to form, he enters my room and he closes the door
He starts to speak to me and he asks
This is what you fell for?
A bitch is what you cared for?
Now tell what the f*ck do you stand for?
He says follow me
As he continues to speak to me
Reminding me all of the things that I want to forget
Reminding every decision in my life that I f*cking regret
I started to sweat
Everything in the room is spinning like a f*cking roulette
He reminds me of how my ex ate all my feelings like a f*cking buffet
I start to realize that he looks like some kind of silhouette
He pulls out a cigarrete
And he says
Look at me closely
What do you see
Once you figure this shit out I'm setting you free
It looked like a shadow begging to be free
I start Asking myself who the f*ck is this creature gonna be
Hey
Wait
He has my hands
My feet
How could it be
Turns out I'm killing myself
Cause he's just a reflection of me