[ Featuring Caleb Grand ]
I'm afraid to lose it
I'm afraid to keep it
I'm afraid to have it
I'm afraid to leave it
But that's my life
I can't lose you like I did before
I don't wanna hurt you but inside I'm torn
I'm needing your love, girl, I'm needing your touch
But the stress you've been feeling is more than too much
And I know that you've often been distant from me
I can't tell what you want, I can't tell what you need
I've been trying to fix it but I can't believe
That I'll be enough, baby you should just leave
I made my mistakes and it all went to waste
And I f*cked my shit up, it blew up in my face, yeah
I wish I could erase
But
I'm afraid to lose it
I'm afraid to keep it
I'm afraid to have it
I'm afraid to leave it
But that's my life
I hate the past
'Cause it brings the tears
I can't face the future
Without you here
In my life
And I know that you've often been distant from me
I can't tell what you want, I can't tell what you need
I'm trying to fix it but I can't believe
That I'll be enough, but just listen to me
I know that it seems like this never could work
I'm scared half to death 'cause I'm so far from perfect
Promise I'll give you my all, you're my purpose
Don't have much to give, but to me, girl, you're worth it
Ever since the day we met, couldn't get you out of my head
Trying my best to keep it on the low, but no matter what I did
I couldn't keep my mouth closed, Goddamn, I'm exposed
Murder is word she wrote, 'cause sometimes it just kills my soul
That I can't hold you close, 'cause you're the one I care for most
Girl, you know it ain't no joke, yeah, you feel like home
But I think I'm at an all time low, I just wanna take you home
But right now I know I gotta maintain my tone
Sadboy is the man I wrote, I don't have no hope
I'm afraid to lose it
I'm afraid to keep it
I'm afraid to have it
I'm afraid to leave it
But that's my life
I hate the past
'Cause it brings the tears
I can't face the future
Without you here
In my life
I'm afraid to lose it
I'm afraid to keep it
I'm afraid to have it
I'm afraid to leave it
But that's my life
Yeah
I hate the past
'Cause it fuels my fears
And I can't get though this
Without you here, no
In my life
