G-Eazy - These Things Happen Too Lyrics
These Things Happen Too
Yeah
I guess it's about that time
You know?
Dakari, just let it run
Uh
Party in a penthouse until I pass the f*ck out
Reminiscin' being broke and hopin' I would luck out
Fast forward, that was then, I switched my perspective
I was supposed to make it here, this wasn't luck, it was destined
Why the f*ck am I surprised? Will I ever feel I belong here?
Spillin' my soul right now, the story gets long here
We waitin' for this album to drop, it's been a long year
Feel like it's been forever, the f*ck has been going on here?
Sex, plus drugs, plus rock 'n roll added
That equation, mixed with success and raw talent
They talk about me, think I went crazy, goddamnit
Woo, I really went crazy, goddamnit
Uh, pull the curtain, there's nothing left here to hide behind
I come with baggage, I'm complicated, you know my sign
Try fathomin' what happens inside my mind
Intoxicated on substances, I've been tryna to find 'em
Reason to change, I found reason to rage
Playin' Jim Morrison, f*ck it, people are strange
Deal with it, on God, there's no keeping me in a cage
They try to buy my soul, but it's not an even exchange
I just had an epiphany, I'm top ten in this industry
If you knew the end result, then what would you have done differently?
My Jekyll and my Hyde look like anything here but symmetry
But I ain't looking for nobody's sympathy
This for the kids who buy tickets
This for the fans of the music
This for the kids who get some inspiration from me and use it
This for myself, to jot this out is all therapeutic
But I never lost myself, so don't you ever confuse it
Readin' comments on my 'Gram, I'm like "damn, they really got at me"
"What happened to the old G? This sucks, won't you come back, G?"
"You said you'd never be that rapper, this shit is tacky"
I make what I wanna make, but I won't make everyone happy
My skin's thick, but I'm not bulletproof
Try to numb myself like when you goin' to pull a tooth
All I can be is myself, go, and tell the truth
I feel like I'm with my therapist when I'm in the booth
Listen
I'm in my own lane, so what do I have to hurry for?
The Bay love me, they root for me like when Curry score
I got it covered, relax, you ain't gotta worry more
I turn the corner, made the block, now I've broken down 30's door
Exes x me out, we ain't feeling the same
One of 'em went on national TV draggin' my name
Wish you would have handled it, eh, uh
I can't complain, 'cause you don't get to choose how people react to being in pain
Yeah, f*ck
Lesson learned, we weren't the perfect match
Future ref', not keeping personal and work attached
We came a ways from going to juvie over purses snatched
Bought moms a Birkin, we still only seen the surface scratched, wow
Been tryna search and find the perfect high
Young stoner from Berkeley High
The person I, became's a little different
Guess we work and try
She kicked me out to get the bird to fly, yeah
This the maturation of Gerry, yeah
Been terrified of commitment, can't understand why it's scary
The deeper that I get, this shit gets harder to say
Why the ones who love me most, the people I push away?
Why the ones who love me most, the people I push away?
Why the ones who love me most, the people I push away?
Yeah, look in a mirror, this is you
No one ever told me, These Things Happen Too
F*ck
Yeah
Writer: Gerald Gillum, Dejan Nikolic, Brian Chew, Dakari Gwitira
Copyright: Lyrics © Ultra Tunes, Sony/ATV Music Publishing LLC, Kobalt Music Publishing Ltd.
When Youre Gone
Shoutout Dakari
Shoutout Ed, shoutout Jesse, shoutout The Game
It's like we always do it this time
Just take it to myself like, yeah, uh
Starin' at a blank canvas
Thinkin' about what should I write, should I plan this?
Reminiscing 18, a freshman on campus
With dreams so big, nobody understands us
'Til they came true, started goin' bananas
Somewhere along the road, I got us as lost as Atlantis
Benders in Vegas, drinking under cabanas
The medicine for breakups, take the pills life hand us
No sleep, I been up for a couple of days
Can't nobody talk to him, been stuck in my ways
They say it's "unsustainable", but f*ck it, it pays
Results and results, keep runnin' in place
I see the writing's on the wall, the shit's getting clear
My new girl says she love me, but I don't even hear her
I can't even drive a Jag', that shit is inferior
Only time I see a threat, when I look in the mirror (yeah)
They only love you (ayy) when you're gone
It don't matter where you're goin', (uh) yeah (you know)
But I did it on my own
So I'd rather be alone, yeah (I'd rather be alone, uh)
They only love you when you're gone
It don't matter where you're goin' (yeah), yeah (uh)
But I got it on my own, so I'd rather die alone (yeah)
Yeah, the greatest gift is knowledge itself
They fail to talk about my journey with mission and wealth
I made it here all by my lonely, no askin' for help
What if my debut never dropped and got kept up on a shelf
Uh, from the soil, grew it slowly
A black leather, slicked back, they want the old G
"Things are happening again", that's what they told me
I came home, full circle, not as an OG
Blink my eyes to my surprise, I'm in Tokyo
20,000 in the crowd singing every quote
Blink again and they kickin' me out of Canada
I swear you wouldn't have the stomach or the stamina
Yeah, my shoulders carry over 20 tons
Biggie said it's mo' problems when the money comes
My songs speak to the greats, yeah, the one-of-ones
I'ma go out as a legend when it's said and done (yeah)
They only love you when you're gone
It don't matter where you're goin', (where you go, uh) yeah
But I did it on my own (on my own)
So I'd rather be alone, yeah (I'd rather be alone, yeah)
They only love you when you're gone (yeah)
It don't matter where you're goin', yeah
But I got it on my own, so I'd rather die alone
Yeah, who put this shit together? I put this shit together
I'ma wear all my chains like some Olympic medals
They think it's all a game, so I'm thinkin' winning record
They thinkin' Kurt Cobain, but I'm thinkin' living legend
I'm straight to the Hall Of Fame, from the hallways of the ghetto
It's f*ck the world, f*ck 12, since I was like ten, eleven
I built the whole f*ckin' mountain, I started out with a pebble
That money talk, that's a convo
If you broke then that's a lecture
I does me, 'cause only God can judge me
Nigga, trust me, only I can trust me
Yeah, it's just me, and the skies above me
But I dug deep, now close your eyes and come see
Will they love me when I'm gone? Will they know me?
Do they love me when I'm home or when I'm OT?
I'm here, and I don't know how long before I won't be
So when I'm gone, how long will they mourn me? (Yeah)
They only love you when you're gone
It don't matter where you're goin', (where you go) yeah
But I did it on my own (on my own)
So I'd rather be alone, yeah
They only love you when you're gone (Wayne, I appreciate you more than you'll ever understand)
It don't matter where you're goin', yeah (you know, a hero of mine)
But I got it on my own, so I'd rather die alone (uh)
Yeah, uh, never finished, tryna search for more
F*ck a hit, this shit is what I do it for
So these bars will always be apart of me
Right now, I feel like track two on Tha Carter III
Uh, like I'm 2008 NOLA
This shit was bubblin' and I don't even drink soda
The whole industry was givin' me a cold shoulder
And now my record label needs me to make quota
Yeah, this all facts and every bar is real
Twenty years, pray to God I'm makin' art still
I'm letting everything go like a yard sale
'Cause these songs will beat longer than my heart will
Writer: Gerald Gillum, Brian Chew, Dakari Gwitira, Nick Brongers, Jesse Ackerman, Edgar Machuca, Dwayne Carter
Copyright: Lyrics © Universal Music Publishing Group, CONCORD MUSIC PUBLISHING LLC, Sony/ATV Music Publishing LLC, Kobalt Music Publishing Ltd., Warner Chappell Music, Inc.
Instructions
You know?
(Mano)
Or do you?
(Hitmaka)
Uh, lil' bitch
(OG Parker)
Give no f*cks 'bout no status
My lil' baby, you can't touch it
Talkin' that blah-blah, that rah-rah
I-I-I-I can't trust it
Brand new Zara, aha-ha, y'all still ballin' on a budget
Ben Baller chain way too big, ain't no way for me to tuck it (yeah)
G-Wagon or the Lamb' truck, copped both, I said, "F*ck it" (yeah)
Shootin' shots, my shit wetty, if the bitch ready, we f*ckin' (yeah)
It's been awhile, she been turned down, had to give the bitch instructions (instructions)
Use two hands when you suck it, like a Birkin bag, how she clutch it (yeah)
Tapped in with my bro Hit, I seen him, I said, "What up?"
Late nights, I'm a vampire, I'm staying up 'til sun up (sun up)
Heard the beat, my first thought is, "I'm bout to beat this the f*ck up" (yeah)
Talkin' all that tough talk, like, "F*ckboy, come run up"
Real life star like Ringo (ayy)
Real life fly-ass gringo
Yay Area my lingo (woo)
Yaddadamean, I'm him tho (him)
Really I'm a real life cheat code (ayy)
Hit five in a row like bingo (bingo)
She on my line like free throw (swish)
Do you yaddadamean though?
Filipino, she from Chico, I can't f*ck no weak ho (ayy)
She gon' deepthroat, she gon' make that pussy pop like Clicquot (ayy)
Pop, pop, pop, what a freak ho (hey)
She wanna party at the casa, I said, "Bring your amigos"
Give no f*cks 'bout no status
My lil' baby, you can't touch it
Talkin' that blah-blah, that rah-rah
I-I-I-I can't trust it
Brand new Zara, aha-ha, y'all still ballin' on a budget
Ben Baller chain way too big, ain't no way for me to tuck it (yeah)
G-Wagon or the Lamb' truck, copped both, I said, "F*ck it" (yeah)
Shootin' shots, my shit wetty, if the bitch ready, we f*ckin' (yeah)
It's been awhile, she been turned down, had to give the bitch instructions (instructions)
Use two hands when you suck it, like a Birkin bag, how she clutch it (yeah)
Ayy, I told her, "F*ck me, I'll take you out that bucket"
When you in some good pussy, it feel like you in a oven (pussy)
Nigga you ain't gangster, you's a do-boy, you a puppet (pussy)
You might as well come work for me, go kill a opp, nigga, f*ck it (pussy)
We don't like opps, we don't fight opps, they duckin' (f*ck the opps)
It seems like the opps sponsored by Nike, how they runnin' (runnin')
Maybachs back-to-back, Ferraris after that, that's how we bummin'
Pulled up with a weak bitch, ah, I'm weak in my stomach (stomach)
Ride dirty and you know that (ayy)
Half of the backend, blow that (ayy)
I know where the money at, LoJack (ayy)
Shooter game crazy like Kodak (gang)
4Hunnid don't play, you should know that (gang)
Eight-figure nigga, you should note that (gang)
My ho's on a diet, low fat (gang)
Her hair all hers, no track
Give no f*cks 'bout no status
My lil' baby, you can't touch it
Talkin' that blah-blah, that rah-rah
I-I-I-I can't trust it
Brand new Zara, aha-ha, y'all still ballin' on a budget
Ben Baller chain way too big, ain't no way for me to tuck it (yeah)
G-Wagon or the Lamb' truck, copped both, I said, "F*ck it" (yeah)
Shootin' shots, my shit wetty, if the bitch ready, we f*ckin' (yeah)
It's been awhile, she been turned down, had to give the bitch instructions (yeah)
Use two hands when you suck it, like a Birkin bag, how she clutch it (yeah)
Writer: Gerald Gillum, Christian Ward, Joshua Isaih Parker, Douglas Ford, Benjamin McGregor Wilson, Keenon Daequan Ray Jackson, Terence Williams
Copyright: Lyrics © Universal Music Publishing Group, CONCORD MUSIC PUBLISHING LLC, Sony/ATV Music Publishing LLC, Downtown Music Publishing, Warner Chappell Music, Inc.
Christophs Interlude
Wanna, wanna be myself (myself)
I just, I just wanna be myself, myself
I just wanna be myself
I just, I just wanna be myself, myself
(I just wanna be myself)
Writer: Gerald Gillum, Christoph Andersson
Copyright: Lyrics © BMG Rights Management, Sony/ATV Music Publishing LLC, Warner Chappell Music, Inc.
Wanna Be Myself
I just wanna do these drugs tonight 'cause I just wanna be myself
I forgot how to be myself
I just really miss myself
I just wanna do these drugs tonight 'cause I just wanna be myself (yeah)
I forgot how to be myself (uh)
I just really miss myself (somebody asked me, yeah)
Somebody asked me, "What do you have outside of music that really makes you happy?"
I thought about it, and I ain't have no answer
I started this shit ten years ago, it was just me and my manager
On the road, doin' any shows, we was fillin' up this calendar
But Matty's married now and it's a whole 'nother chapter
While I'm in Gerryland, I'm still here wildin' as a bachelor
Woke up next to a stranger, what's her name? I had to ask her
She prolly thinks I got it all, but it's pain behind this laughter
Hungover the mornin' after, close my drapes, make it blackout
Tryna put the pieces together from last night when I blacked out
On LSD, had a convo with my brother, it brought a lot out
See, I don't ever take the uniform off, and now I'm clocked out
I just wanna do these drugs tonight 'cause I just wanna be myself
I forgot how to be myself
I just really miss myself
I just wanna do these drugs tonight 'cause I just wanna be myself
I forgot how to be myself, yeah
I just really miss myself (yeah)
Comin' down in my room all alone listenin' to Mac
Last time he text me, I was f*cked up, forgot I didn't hit him back
Wish I could have spoken up, man, I just want my brother back
But I mean, who am I to talk, bro? I'm still livin' like that
They'll never understand what it's like to be a artist
Make some shit I don't feel, yes men tell me it's the hardest
They just wanna keep their jobs, stay on my good side, keep their office
Keep us on the road, and no commission or the profits
Now everything is peachy, and yeah, I feel Avicii
Fifty thousand watchin' me, but I swear don't nobody see me
But it's rich people problems, it's stamps all in my passport
My mama tellin' me that, "This is everything you asked for" (what do you want?)
I just wanna do these drugs tonight 'cause I just wanna be myself
I forgot how to be myself (how to be myself)
I just really miss myself (great mind, great mind)
I just wanna do these drugs tonight 'cause I just wanna be myself
I forgot how to be myself, yeah
I just really miss myself
My anxiety increases the higher that I climb
I thought this shit would get easier, easier with time
I'm happy in my mind, but at least I tell myself that
Guess I'm damaged goods, I cannot help that
Drugs take the edge off, hide inside my comfort zone
Different girl every night, but worry I'ma die alone
Me against the world, can't decide now what side I'm on
Miss my family but act like I can't even dial a phone
Cheated on my girl, I felt like shit, and then I sped off
Crept in the crib quiet, shower, took my YSL off
She woke up, grab my dick, I couldn't help it, had to get off
And then she gave me head, felt like I wanna blow my head off
Think everybody cheats, everybody will
Everybody leaves, but these drugs never will
I know that sounds f*cked up, but in the end, it's real
'Til I'm lost on a bender askin' myself can I chill
This scale here will measure, five hundred pounds of pressure
The only thing to alleviate it is a stash in the dresser
Illuminate my ugly, you really sure you love me?
You deserve to know the truth, decide now what you think of me
I just wanna do these drugs tonight 'cause I just wanna be myself
I forgot how to be myself
I just really miss myself
I just wanna do these drugs tonight 'cause I just wanna be myself
I forgot how to be myself, yeah
I just really miss myself
Writer: Gerald Gillum, Donald Paton, Larry Gashi, Kossisko Konan, Yuval Chain
Copyright: Lyrics © BMG Rights Management, The Administration MP, Inc., CONCORD MUSIC PUBLISHING LLC, Sony/ATV Music Publishing LLC
Everything is Everything
Haha
Yeah, uh
I hate you, I say, "Damn, I miss you"
Shootin' in Paris for that French Vogue issue
Wish I could teleport there just to kiss you
She models VS, yeah, she's so official
Life switched off, when'd it get so blissful?
Paper plane dreams, thought it all so simple
I told my ex, write a letter on paper with a pencil
She said, "You chose this after all we've been through
A f*ck boy, how could you be so forgetful?
You think they all real and they'll stay with you
And if you're that dumb, I'm mad I ever f*ck with you
You think you're that real 'til that limelight hits you"
Try the shoe on even if it don't fit you
They all see the problems, they all wanna fix you
Now it's a Saturday night, we gon' dance in that light
While I think to myself, goddamn, this ain't right, this ain't right
She said, "I'm over you" (this ain't right)
That's what you told me (it can't be right)
But I know the truth
She wants the old me (yeah)
Everything is everything they say (yeah)
Everything is everything they say (yeah)
It all depends on what you value
Figure this out on your own, nobody shows you how to
They tell me, "You're a product of the people that's around you"
My exes singin' bullshit on the air, I live without you
Wow, did anything stay with you?
When I f*cked up, I think I might still miss you
Slipped one night, I sent a text and I hit you
Send me back a message like, "The f*ck is wrong with you?"
Which one are you? I ain't tryna argue
I know I lost you somewhere, but how far are you?
Life is a movie, your always stars you
But tell me, what did them houses and cars to you?
You try on the life, even if it don't fit you
They all see the problems, they all wanna fix you
Now it's a Saturday night, we gon' dance in that light
While I think to myself, goddamn, goddamn, this ain't right
She said, "I'm over you" (it can't be right)
That's what you told me
But I know the truth
She wants the old me (I see you, like)
Everything is everything they say (just pick a side and just stick to the side)
Everything is everything they say
Everything is everything they say
Uh-huh
They said there's three sides to every story
Everything is everything they say
The right side and the wrong side and my side
Everything is everything they say
Can I, can I just tell my story?
Even if you don't hear this shit, it's whatever, yeah
Everything is everything they say
Uh, you used to say we're meant to be, this was our destiny
Playin' back our last fight, that's when she said to me
"I was just a step to you, you wanna step on me
The last time you broke my heart, that was the death of we"
She said, "Congrats, you did it now, your dreams came true"
Let's get lost, you took to heart the words I sang you
I guess heights like these ain't got the same view
'Cause now I'm thinkin' I really lookin' at the same you
Chasin' ghosts, feel like I've seen this phantom before
Feel like I recognize this feelin', I've had it before
I tried to give my all to her, now she's askin' for more
She put me in the dog house, I crashed on the floor
Vanilla sky, guess you finally saw my ugly side
Some dirt come to the surface, it's real tough to hide
I feel the effects, I just got butterflies
Been openin' that door, but there's nothin' there on the other side
Yeah
Everything is everything they say
Everything is everything they say
I feel like The Matrix, how I open the door and there's a brick wall behind it
Everything is everything they say
Everything is everything they say
Why am I chasin' ghosts? I guess I'm tryna keep you close
Everything is everything they say
Everything is everything they say
Writer: Gerald Gillum, Goody Grace, Dakari Gwitira, Brian Chew, Mino Drerup, Daniel J, Esguerra, Adriano Allahverdi
Copyright: Lyrics © Sony/ATV Music Publishing LLC, Kobalt Music Publishing Ltd.
Origami
Yeah
Yeah
Haha
Yeah
I treat the gang like one of my phones
You can't get in without knowin' the code
Call and collect for all that I'm owed
This ain't origami, I'm never gon' fold
Saint Laurent coat
Oh, shit
My dog 40 Water, I tell him to go
Take what I'm owed
Oh, shit
This ain't origami, I'm never gon' fold (ayy)
One in a million (ayy)
Why would I take your opinion?
You probably would fold in the shit that I been in
Made it out, ooh, what a feelin'
Look how they done turned the hero to a villain (villain)
Notice we callin' them opps
I might send a shot from the top of the buildin' (pew)
Never take me for no industry plant
We can't do all that linkin' and buildin'
F*ck do y'all take me for?
Gassed up, the tank is on F, I f*ck her the best
You know I ain't kissin' no whore
GPS, look at 'em lost, he ain't got the sauce
He ain't got the vision no more
I used to point at the guards to give 'em a play
But f*ck, I ain't dishin' no more
Louis V all on my glasses, Saint Laurent jacket
Yeah, but the denim's Dior
Money fall like origami, f*ck am I talkin' 'bout?
My shit can't fold anymore
She used to give me cold shoulders, I heat it up
Her shit ain't cold anymore (no)
Only few places I go anymore (haha)
Trunk in the front with the vertical doors (woo)
I treat the gang like one of my phones
You can't get in without knowin' the code
Call and collect for all that I'm owed
This ain't origami, I'm never gon' fold
Saint Laurent coat
Oh, shit
My dog 40 Water, I tell him to go
Take what I'm owed
Oh, shit
This ain't origami, I'm never gon' fold
You know, I say I'm up and that's still bein' generous (generous)
Could give all my doubters a stimulus
I ain't got no time to reminisce
Only attachment I want is a message with videos, images
Please don't act innocent (you know what time it is)
I got so used to me winnin' shit
Won't even suit up for scrimmages (no)
I turned a deal to a dealership
We used to drive out of state with the pack
Put trees in the boot like a Timberland, ooh
My bitch and my ex back and forth with the racket
I feel like I'm at the Wimbledon, ooh
I get to wake up a CEO
Shit, she say I'm lucky
But she get to wake up and see me though
Shit, so who really lucky?
Mister Celine
I put the D on her, bring her 'round primetime, I had to D on her
She brought her friend, she look like Rihanna
One had the molly, won't have the C on her
Let's have a threesome if we agree on her
I feel like Klay, I hit the three-pointer
You know she mine, you see the G on her
Seen her with me, now they tryna be on her, ayy
I treat the gang like one of my phones
You can't get in without knowin' the code
Call and collect for all that I'm owed
This ain't origami, I'm never gon' fold
Saint Laurent coat
Oh, shit
My dog 40 Water, I tell him to go
Take what I'm owed
Oh, shit
This ain't origami, I'm never gon' fold
Yeah
You know what it is
Writer: Gerald Gillum, Mathias Liyew, Douglas Ford, Benjamin McGregor Wilson, Trevor Rich
Copyright: Lyrics © Ultra Tunes, CONCORD MUSIC PUBLISHING LLC, Sony/ATV Music Publishing LLC
Solar Eclipse
You know
Yee (ahaha)
Let's go
Ayy (Hit-Boy)
Get off my dick, buddy
Get off my bitch, dummy
'Fore I take your bitch with us, then let my bitch run it
Look at my wrist, I'm talkin' totally lit
Look at my wrist, I'm talkin' solar eclipse, uh
Look at my fit, I'm totally lit
I'm totally it, my style, you totally bit
I just crashed the 'Rari, I totaled that shit
Wait, Dakari, turn up my vocals a bit
You only locally known, my brand is globally grown
If you ain't know that by now, then you was totally wrong
I just left Miami, came back to Oakland, my home
This shit I'm smokin' is Flower Shop and it's potentially blown (sheesh)
Get off my dick, buddy
Get off my bitch, dummy
'Fore I take your bitch with us, then let my bitch run it
Look at my wrist, I'm talkin' totally lit
Look at my wrist, I'm talkin' solar eclipse (yeah)
Ayy, one-of-one, there'll never be another one
Got the valet lookin' at me all troublesome
When I told him get the Benz, he got the other one
When I really meant the other one
In Vancouver, I had threw the Prada bubble on
Who you know that's global tourin', puttin' Oakland on?
I can tell you what it is, but you already know it
Champagne, keep glowin', keep pourin', keep pourin'
Multi-platinum, we had did that years ago, and I still keep doin' it
Couple cribs, which one?
Bunch of ones, pick one
Drink until the drink's done
I been on a sick one
Everywhere that I go, they know me as the lit one
Get off my dick, buddy
Get off my bitch, dummy
'Fore I take your bitch with us, then let my bitch run it
Look at my wrist, I'm talkin' totally lit
Look at my wrist, I'm talkin' solar eclipse, uh
Get off my dick, buddy
Get off my bitch, dummy
'Fore I take your bitch with us, then let my bitch run it
Look at my wrist, I'm talkin' totally lit
Look at my wrist, I'm talkin' solar eclipse, uh
Look at my wrist, I'm talkin' solar eclipse, uh
Fourth quarter, I just Kobe'd this shit
Let's go
Writer: Gerald Gillum, Chauncy Hollis, Raynford Humphrey, Quentin Miller
Copyright: Lyrics © Universal Music Publishing Group, Sony/ATV Music Publishing LLC
I Me Myself
I'm too f*cked up, I can't even tolerate myself
Sleep with one eye open, in case they try and move in stealth
And my mama's worried 'bout me, but I ain't scared to go to hell
Only God can judge me, it's just I, me and myself, yeah
It's just I, me and myself
I love my lil' brother, he remind me of myself
I be nasty, on my Nas shit, ain't really hard to tell
You know that they be crawlin', if they buyin', I'm gon' sell, yeah
It's just I, me and myself
I love my lil' brother, he remind me of myself
I be nasty, on my Nas shit, ain't really hard to tell
Uh, it's just I, me and myself
Long lines on AC Transit, I put that Illmatic CD on
Lookin' out the window, at the walls they put graffiti on
Passin' by the billboards I knew one day I would see me on
But until then, just keep keepin' on
Easier said than done, I was the one they kept on sleepin' on
Told me keep dreamin' on
Back then, I had Girbauds, a 3X tall tee, and a beanie on
Who knew that me, myself and I would make it here? That's crazy
A lot of shit has changed since the version I had Bebe on
Love my lil' brother, born a day apart and three years
Both Gemini twins, everything we been through, we share these tears
Every time I look at him, it feel just like I see mirrors
Been through thick and thin, and he helped me get through all these fears, for real
I'm too f*cked up (you know), I can't even tolerate myself (love you, bro)
Sleep with one eye open, in case they try and move in stealth (yeah)
And my mama's worried 'bout me, but I ain't scared to go to hell (I be alright, mama)
Only God can judge me, it's just I, me and myself, yeah (you know)
It's just I, me and myself (uh)
I love my lil' brother, he remind me of myself
I be nasty, on my Nas shit, ain't really hard to tell
You know that they be crawlin', if they buyin', I'm gon' sell, yeah
It's just I, me and myself
I love my lil' brother, he remind me of myself
I be nasty, on my Nas shit, ain't really hard to tell
Uh, it's just I, me and myself
You know, uh
Now it's just I, me and myself
They couldn't teach me this, I had to learn to like bein' myself
Got through that self-doubt, now I'm just fine bein' myself
I couldn't look to them, had to go and find me in myself
Well, now I got it though
Put 'em skeletons in my closet and told 'em, "Adiós"
Let 'em keep the Prada shoes 'cause I was never proud of those
Made it through those sloppy joes, made it out them stop and goes
Ice cream with the baddest hoes remind me of the rocky roads
I took the scenic
Crazy to call it crazy 'til they get it, then it's genius
And I might be the rapper, but she payin' for all her features
I, me and myself, the only people I believe in
You know, yeah
I'm too f*cked up, I can't even tolerate myself
Sleep with one eye open, in case they try and move in stealth
And my mama's worried 'bout me, but I ain't scared to go to hell
Only God can judge me, it's just I, me and myself, yeah
It's just I, me and myself
I love my lil' brother, he remind me of myself
I be nasty, on my Nas shit, ain't really hard to tell
You know that they be crawlin', if they buyin', I'm gon' sell, yeah
It's just I, me and myself
I love my lil' brother, he remind me of myself
I be nasty, on my Nas shit, ain't really hard to tell
Uh, it's just I, me and myself
Nasty, on my Nas shit, ain't really hard to tell
Love my lil' brother, it's just I, me and myself
Writer: Gerald Gillum, Benjamin McGregor Wilson, Trevor Rich
Copyright: Lyrics © CONCORD MUSIC PUBLISHING LLC, Sony/ATV Music Publishing LLC
Now Later Next
We be to rap what key be to lock, but (N-N-Nonstop)
We be to rap what key be to lock, but
We be to rap what key be to lock, but
We be to rap what key be to lock, but (Hitmaka)
We be to rap what key be to lock, but (Yay Area, like that)
We be to rap what key be to lock, but (tell the people that Young Gerald is back)
We be to rap what key be to lock, but (Yay Area, like that)
We be to rap what key be to lock, but (tell the people that Young Gerald is back)
Yee, my phone number still start with 510
Legend in the Bay, ask about me if you don't know
So don't get it tangled or mixed up like gumbo
Walkin' out a hunnid K richer out of 1OAK
Uh, the reincarnation of Hugh Hef', I tried to warn ya
P of the Year, I f*cked half of California
So don't come in and try and get territorial
I killed the pussy, I should give it a memorial
R.I.P. to it
Moment of silence (shh)
But if walls could talk, they'll say, "G, you're wildin'" (Yay Area)
Gun up in this bitch, and I'm throwin' up my set
Told 'em, "Hold the ice," there's too much water on my neck (Yay Area)
Bitch, I got now, later, and I got next
Told the bitch I love her, I just really want the check (Yay Area)
Gun up in this bitch, and I'm throwin' up my set
Told 'em, "Hold the ice," there's too much water on my neck (Yay Area)
Bitch, I got now, later, and I got next
Told the thooter that I love her, I just really want the sex
Got the blessing from unc', it's just a text out here
They sayin' I'm back, I never went nowhere
No chinks in my armor, it ain't no dent nowhere
Don't play with me, I am who they protect out here
Got the keys to the Bay and the whole West out here
Pulled it out, point it at him, then said, "Your neck go there"
Bitch, I got now, later, and next out here, uh
Please don't misquote this, me and ho shit, we don't mix
We was hyphy in '06
And if that's your girl, why your wifey on ho trips?
Out in Mykonos, on the yacht, postin' boat pics
I run out of wall space for plaques, you ain't got no hits (Yay Area)
Gun up in this bitch, and I'm throwin' up my set
Told 'em, "Hold the ice," there's too much water on my neck (Yay Area)
Bitch, I got now, later, and I got next
Told the bitch I love her, I just really want the check (Yay Area)
Gun up in this bitch, and I'm throwin' up my set
Told 'em, "Hold the ice," there's too much water on my neck (Yay Area)
Bitch, I got now, later, and I got next
Told the thooter that I love her, I just really want the sex
I tell the biggest bitch I love her if her pockets match
This'll cough 'em up, this ain't that, but just some Wock' in that
Like how the f*ck your pockets full, and ain't no guap in that?
And my brodie bro'll wipe your nose like it's some snot in that
And this bitch so bad, I made her pick a corner
Only time this bitch done folded on me, when she bent it over
The way it's wobblin' in jeans, damn, I should get to know ya
Ain't have no mask, I pulled up on her, bitch, it's still corona
Bitch said could she come over, bitch, I'm quarantinin'
And you don't really want beef, you was born a vegan
And I bought a whole year if it was forty seasons
He take my chain, I take his life, bitch, we're more than even (Yay Area)
Gun up in this bitch, and I'm throwin' up my set
Told 'em, "Hold the ice," there's too much water on my neck (Yay Area)
Bitch, I got now, later, and I got next
Told the bitch I love her, I just really want the check (Yay Area)
Gun up in this bitch, and I'm throwin' up my set
Told 'em, "Hold the ice," there's too much water on my neck (Yay Area)
Bitch, I got now, later, and I got next
Told the thooter that I love her, I just really want the sex (Yay Area)
Writer: Gerald Gillum, Christian Ward, Gary Evan Fountaine, Jaucquez Lowe, Douglas Ford, Earl Stevens, Thomas Tremaine Jackson, Ricardo Thomas, Ishmael Reginals Butler, Maryann Veira, Wayman Barrow Jr., ShooterGang Kony
Copyright: Lyrics © Sony/ATV Music Publishing LLC
Speed
Keep true for real, T-R-U, to the gang, we real (hahaha)
Eee, eee (keep true for real, true for real)
(Keep true for real, keep true for)
Yeah
Splash Bros, it's a give-and-go
I just choose who I want, that's a pick and roll
I throw ten thousand at a stripper pole (splash)
And I made a movie with her, played a different role
Yeah, uh, spendin' large amounts (large amounts)
No limit, she'll never get this card to bounce (card to bounce)
Upgrade, a better car, bought a larger house (larger house)
Putting PJs in the air, flyin' charter routes (charter routes), yeah
We really do this shit, look
Hella freeze, if I ever get my bitch took (ooh)
I got private school tuition on my wrist, look
And I score like Kareem with the left hook, ooh
Yeah, that's hella rings (hella rings)
Hollywood hills, I'm with hella tings
Put some game in her ear, I'ma tell her things, yeah
This the lifestyle the cheddar brings (yee)
Keep true for real, true for real
Keep true for real, keep true, true
Keep true for real, true for real
Keep true for real, keep true, true
He's going the distance (ayy, ayy)
He's going for speed
He's all alone (all alone), all alone in a time of need (eee)
He's going the distance (ayy, ayy)
He's going for speed
He's all alone (all alone), all alone in a time of need (eee)
Yeah, uh
New contract gettin' maxed out
Penthouse, private section, brought stacks out
New house like Wayne manor, mapped out
And the fave' 'Rarari is blacked out (vroom)
Skrrt, the Batmobile, the man so wild
Difference between us, you have no style
Rubber up, I ain't tryna have no child
It's not time for that, check the Rolex dial
Time to get this money, you know?
It's a lotta work to do
F*ck workin' for somebody else, make 'em work for you
Got a check, went and shows moms what these purses do
Copped the Goyard, f*ck it, go and cop the Birkin too, uh
And I'm true to it (true to it)
Been in this game, I ain't new to it (new to it)
Always wanted to see the top, so I flew to it (flew to it)
Ended up staying there, really, who knew it?
You knew?
Keep true for real, true for real (true)
Keep true for real, keep true, true (true)
Keep true for real, true for real (true)
Keep true for real, keep true, true
He's going the distance (ayy, ayy)
He's going for speed
He's all alone (all alone), all alone in a time of need (eee)
He's going the distance (ayy, ayy)
He's going for speed
He's all alone (all alone), all alone in a time of need (eee)
Everybody now
Five, four, three, two, woo
Let me spend all these ones on you
Everybody now
Five, four, three, two, woo
Let me spend all these ones on you
Everybody now
Five, four, three, two, woo
Let me spend all these ones on you
Everybody now
Five, four, three, two, woo
Let me spend all these ones on you
Hahahaha
Writer: Gerald Gillum, Christoph Andersson, Gregory Brown
Copyright: Lyrics © Sony/ATV Music Publishing LLC, Warner Chappell Music, Inc.
Breakdown
I got big plans but none of them feel like mine (yeah)
And I miss days where I used to feel like me (you know)
'Cause I've been trapped in all the freedom
Throw my heart up at the ceiling
I take another drink so I can kill the voice of reason
I got big plans but none of them feel like mine (too much is too much)
You know
Uh, they fightin' my demons but they ain't fightin' fair
But I keep sayin' that everything is all right, I swear
All alone in a dark space, ain't no light in there
What's f*cked up is I might actually like it there
Pouring everything on this paper my pen is on
Feel like I'm breaking in places they put the pressure on
I'm the one in my circle they all depending on
To do it though I need these drugs I've become dependent on
Someone tried to confront me now we don't get along
In my business, they trippin' off what I'm sippin' on
They can't reach the pedestal that my head is on
But truthfully I've been breaking down, just finally lettin' on (uh)
Oh, I'm in the middle of a breakdown, baby (yeah)
I need you, I need you (I got you)
Oh, I'm in the middle of a storm now, baby
I need you, I need you to come over (I got you)
Tell me this will be over (uh)
Over soon (yeah)
Oh, oh, I'm in the middle of a breakdown, baby
I need you (I got you), I need you, I
Uh, crowded space but I feel alone
Eyes on me at all times in a judgement zone
Somewhere on the road f*cked up but I'm missin' home
No rest for the wicked, work cut out, put a pillow on
Anywhere, from misunderstood they try to patronize
They judgin' my ways, but won't empathize
You couldn't walk in my shoes, I'm not tellin' lies
Since 21, I've been runnin' a whole enterprise
Provide for too many people, I can't jeopardize
But I've been breakin' in half to two separate lives
Mister Hodges died lookin' at Jekyll's eyes
I start becoming somebody I can't recognize
Oh, I'm in the middle of a breakdown, baby (uh, you know)
I need you, I need you (I need you too)
Oh, I'm in the middle of a storm now, baby
I need you, I need you to come over (I got you)
Tell me this will be over (uh)
Over soon (yeah)
Oh, oh, I'm in the middle of a breakdown, baby
I need you (ayy), I need you (whoa), I (uh)
Oh, I need you (I got you)
Oh, I need you (I got you)
So come over
Tell me this will be over (uh)
Over soon (yeah)
Oh, oh, I'm in the middle of a breakdown, baby
I need you, I need you (I got you)
I got big plans but none of them feel like mine (you know)
And I miss days where I used to feel like me
Writer: Caroline Pennell, Dakari Gwitira, Demetria Lovato, Gerald Gillum, Jay Stolar, Martin Hardie Coogan, Sean Cameron Meier
Copyright: Lyrics © Universal Music Publishing Group, Sony/ATV Music Publishing LLC, Kobalt Music Publishing Ltd., Warner Chappell Music, Inc.
Faithful
I don't wanna be a part-time lover
I don't wanna make you wonder where I've been
I don't wanna get myself in trouble, out there f*ckin' 'round with these hoes again
I don't wanna make you feel insecure, baby
Wanna be yours, baby
Something 'bout you got me feeling more mature lately
Make you the only girl in the world
I've done broke so many hearts, it's disgraceful
And I know your mama told ya I'm no angel
But if you walked out right now, it would be painful
Girl, you're so bad, you make me faithful
You know, yeah
At the crossroads and now I got the blues
I know Page Six tagged me, but you ain't watched the news
I know I made mistakes that you just can't excuse
I know I did you no favors far as your trust issues
Were concerned, the second chances, got burned
Each time that I went back on my word, it's time to learn
As the vinyl turns, Usher Raymond sings, "Let It Burn"
And I'll just be here waiting until this karma returns like, yeah
I've done broke so many hearts (you know), it's disgraceful (its' disgraceful, uh)
And I know your mama told ya I'm no angel (no, yeah)
But, if you walked out right now, it would be painful (painful, uh)
Girl, you're so bad, you make me faithful (uh)
Faithful, ooh (you know, haha, yeah)
Faithful, ooh (if anybody can do it, it'd be you)
You say I lost my way and you hope it gets found
Pick the pieces back up, turn this whole thing around
You told the truth, I understood when you broke it all down
These double standards that you deal with, I'm noticing now
You get upset when I'm on the road and these hoes are around
But it's a job, I can't stay home and be broke in the town
You know the real me, yeah, the Gerald when no one's around
Only one person I thought of when I wrote this shit down
But reverse roles, we suddenly swapped
I'm out the picture now and there'll be some things that get cropped
And all this stuff is pretty faces and Photoshopped
But, I would trade 'em in a heartbeat, every one would get dropped
I've done broke so many hearts (yeah, you know), it's disgraceful (its' disgraceful)
And I know your mama told ya I'm no angel (I'm not, yeah)
But, if you walked out right now, it would be painful (painful, uh)
Girl, you're so bad, you make me faithful (you know)
Faithful, ooh
Faithful, to you
And if I ever doubted you, it's 'cause my vision's clouded
Runnin' away from the truth, I knew (whoa, whoa, whoa, whoa)
Now I feel so surrounded ever since the day I found ya
Nothing is so new, we never knew
With you, yeah
Hmm, I'm gonna be faithful now, to you
I've done broke so many hearts, it's disgraceful (oh yeah)
And I know your mama told ya I'm no angel (yeah, yeah)
But, if you walked out right now, it would be painful (oh yeah)
Girl, you're so bad, you make me faithful
Faithful, ooh (I'm gonna be, I'm gonna be)
Faithful, to you
Faithful, ooh (I'm gonna be, I'm gonna be)
Faithful, to you
Writer: Gerald Gillum, Jake Torrey, Nick Sarazen, Jacob Kasher, Marc Griffin
Copyright: Lyrics © Society of Composers, Authors and Music Publishers of Canada (SOCAN), Sony/ATV Music Publishing LLC, 9057-0581 QUEBEC INC., Warner Chappell Music, Inc.
Wicked Game
The world was on fire and no one could save me but you
It's strange what desire will make foolish people do
And I never dreamed that I'd meet somebody like you
And I never dreamed that I'd lose somebody like you, you
No, I don't wanna fall in love
No, I don't wanna fall in love
With you, with you
What a wicked game you play, yeah, to make me feel this way, yeah
What a wicked thing to do, uh, to let me dream of you
What a wicked thing to say, you never felt this way
What a wicked thing to do, to make me dream of you
No, I don't wanna fall in love
No, I don't wanna fall in love
With you, with you
Why would she do me this way?
You know they can't touch you playin' this wicked
Walk out Delilah with someone you know
Paparazzi outside, you know they finna flick it
TMZ post, they keep namin' me in it
See you been movin' this way for a minute
Games that you play
Yeah, but I guess that's your way of just makin' a statement to end it
Face it, admit it, uh, you shootin' me down
The Bulls how you aimin' and hit it
Told yourself first, but I never told mines
So up until now, I know they didn't get it
Paint me the villain, I get it, I get it, yeah
Uh, I get it, I get it
Lookin' around, drivin' 'round town
In the backseat of the Wraith 'cause it's tinted
This shit can get lonely, yeah
F*ck, this shit can get lonely
Lookin' around thinkin' who really know me
Who really stay down and who try to disown me
Like, f*ck
F*ck fake love, I can still sense the foul taste of
Memories I pushed way down
I pulled everything else way above like
No, I don't wanna fall in love (haha, you know)
(I wanna fall in love again, uh)
No, I don't wanna fall in love (you know)
With you, with you
Nobody loves no one, yeah
And nobody loves no one
No one, no one
Yeah
And nobody loves no one
Uh, nobody loves no one
Yeah, nobody loves no one
Uh, nobody loves no one, uh
Writer: Chris Isaak
Copyright: Lyrics © Broma 16, Warner Chappell Music, Inc.
Bad Bad News!
Not at all, but you know, we can all be in love and we fall out of love
You have to be in love with yourself
You've never been loved before?
I have never felt, I haven't
Bad, bad, bad news
Uh, the look in your eyes, you don't seem halfway
You're scared as you should be (hmm, why would I ever be scared?)
Uh, and every single one of your friends says to run far away from me
I'm bad, bad news (but I like you)
They don't wanna see a tragedy, uh (so what?)
I'm bad, bad news (bad, bad, bad news)
That's what they all say about me (really?)
(Bad, bad, bad news)
(Bad, bad, bad news)
Uh, they don't fit that mold
Everything that shines isn't always gold
You get mad, then your blood runs cold
But I know you don't believe all them lies you're told
That I'm bad, bad news, uh
Just another tragedy, uh
I'm bad, bad news
Why would I give a f*ck what they say about me?
(Bad, bad, bad news)
(Bad, bad, bad news) You know, uh
What if we make a swell couple?
Best friend thinkin' everythin' about him just spells trouble
Dreams flyin' off the shelves, he probably sells double
Tellin' lies and sinnin', he belongs on a hell shuttle
F*ck, arms covered in tattoos
There's so many taboos 'bout him but she's in love with the bad dudes
She don't listen when her friends say that he's bad news
She knows better, that's my baby, yeah (bad, bad, bad news)
(Bad, bad, bad news)
(Bad, bad, bad news)
(Bad, bad, bad news)
(Bad, bad, bad news)
(Bad, bad, bad news)
(Bad, bad, bad news)
Writer: Gerald Gillum, Al Cleveland, Casey Manheim, Jeffrey Kinsey, Benedic Ihesiba
Copyright: Lyrics © Sony/ATV Music Publishing LLC
No More
(Damn, James)
Dolla $ign, Dolla $ign, Dolla $ign, Dolla $ign
Sometimes I just can't take it no more
Sometimes I just can't take it no more
Said all I can, can't say it no more
I tried so hard, can't try no more
Sometimes I just can't take it no more
Sometimes I just can't take it no more
Sometimes I just can't take it no more, yeah
Yeah, uh
I'm really 'bout to lose my mind, the shit I've had up to here
All the stress you put me through, wish I made that disappear
Think it's time we set some boundaries, let's just establish this here
We've been through it, that's a lot of shit that happened this year
Need someone to talk to like I wish Mac was still here
No Louis, but I can tell that you got baggage's clear
You moved out, but you still be gettin' packages here
Used to say the limelight's, you won't let that interfere
But seems like you actin' different when some rappers is here
Shakin' ass all in the club like how you dance in the mirror
You was listenin' to your girlfriends who you had in your ear
If she know everything to ask her why her man isn't here, for real
Sometimes I just can't take it no more
Sometimes I just can't take it no more
Said all I can, can't say it no more
I tried so hard, can't try no more
Sometimes I just can't take it no more
Sometimes I just can't take it no more
Sometimes I just can't take it no more, yeah
I'm fed up (oh, yeah)
Fed up (oh, yeah)
I'm fed up (oh, yeah, yeah, yeah)
Fed up (ooh, yeah)
Yeah, uh
I reached my limit, you pushed me to the edge
To the point where you send text and I leave you on read
Wait, you ain't catchin' what I said?
If you think that you one up on me, I'm twenty steps ahead
Don't ask me what's my mood 'cause it's on, f*ck you
'Cause you play games and, just for that, girl, I can't trust you
I say this just to make a point, yeah, my heart told me to make this joint
We've been broken long before this breaking point, you know
Sometimes I just can't take it no more
Sometimes I just can't take it no more
Said all I can, can't say it no more
I tried so hard, can't try no more
Sometimes I just can't take it no more
Sometimes I just can't take it no more
Sometimes I just can't take it no more, yeah
Sometimes I just hit that point, I'm like, I can, I can't do this anymore
You're only breakin' me down, you're not buildin' me up
It's too much
Writer: Gerald Gillum, James Royo, William Van Zandt, Alexander Krashinsky, Tyrone Griffin Jr.
Copyright: Lyrics © Ultra Tunes, CONCORD MUSIC PUBLISHING LLC, Sony/ATV Music Publishing LLC, Kobalt Music Publishing Ltd., Warner Chappell Music, Inc.
Running Wild (Tumblr Girls 2)
Story about a girl I know
Movin' on crazy, missin' those calls
I'm tryna get to you, but you're makin' it hard
You said you runnin' wild, runnin' wild, runnin' wild
You love runnin' wild, runnin' wild, runnin' wild
Girl, just slow it down, could you slow it down? (Slow down)
'Cause you runnin' wild and free
Yeah
She's runnin' wild these days
Got in a fight the other night
Now we ain't spoke in three days
You ragin' in South Beach
A couple of your friends had b-days
Someone said they seen you with somebody
You used up your cheat days
It's f*cked up (f*ck)
Pot callin' the kettle black
Hate the fact you wildin' out
And I'm trippin' tryna get you back
All of the sudden the tables turn
Tryna keep this shit intact
Know you'll be the death of me, I'm sayin'
Look, that's just a fact
I'm in love with these Tumblr girls
With skinny waists and drug habits (ayy)
Pretty faces, love status
She acts as if she's the baddest (ayy)
Man, I swear she's just like tons of girls
It's all pretend, can't see it
You just wanna live carefree
Your soul's wild, go free it (wild, go free it)
Movin' on crazy, missin' those calls (you missin' all my calls)
I'm tryna get to you, but you're makin' it hard (I feel like you're a million miles away)
You said you runnin' wild, runnin' wild, runnin' wild
You love runnin' wild, runnin' wild, runnin' wild
Girl, just slow it down, could you slow it down?
'Cause you're runnin' wild and free (yeah, uh)
On a flight to Miami sittin' first class with champagne
Penthouse at the Mondrian, all her model friends came (uh)
She likes runnin' wild and free, she's the one you can't tame
I'm familiar with the real world, she just think it's a game (mmm)
On Monday she's in love with me, she can't imagine no other (facts)
Tuesday we get in a fight, on Wednesday blockin' my number (wow)
Thursday she's partyin', hits Richie, 1Oak, she's covered
Goes to sleep at 6 A.M., Friday shootin' the cover
I'm in love with these Tumblr girls
With skinny waists and drug habits (ayy)
Pretty faces, love status
She acts as if she's the baddest
Man, I swear she's just like tons of girls
It's all pretend, can't see it
You just wanna live carefree
Your soul's wild, go free it (wild, go free it)
Movin' on crazy, missin' those calls
I'm tryna get to you, but you're makin' it hard
You said you runnin' wild, runnin' wild, runnin' wild
You love runnin' wild, runnin' wild, runnin' wild
Girl, just slow it down, could you slow it down? (I feel like you're so far)
'Cause you runnin' wild and free (yeah, uh)
It's all good though
Yeah, uh
Writer: Brian Chew, Dakari Gwitira, Gerald Gillum, Jocelyn Adriene Donald, Kossisko Konan, Omari Massenburg
Copyright: Lyrics © CONCORD MUSIC PUBLISHING LLC, Sony/ATV Music Publishing LLC, Downtown Music Publishing, Kobalt Music Publishing Ltd.
Time
April 27th, 2019
I hope you hear, I hope this reaches you, uh
All the money in the world, I can't find where they selling time
Or a button that rewind, I'm just thinkin', sippin' this wine, let me catch you up
It's been some time, let me catch you up
Yeah, uh, f*ck
I don't know where to start
But something told me, write this down and just speak from the heart
It's been fourteen years since I found you all alone in the dark
But losing you brought us together when it could've tore us apart
Mom still ain't good, she misses you, she thinks 'bout you daily
We got a dog after you passed and she nicknamed her Missy
She lives alone out in New Orleans, she always tells me she miss me
But such as life, this story's real, it's not a movie by Disney
She'll probably tell you I wrote a song and put your story inside it, f*ck
I forgot to tell you, I'm like a famous rapper now
Signed a record deal, I made all of my dreams come true
I toured the world, made platinum albums and I still stayed true
It's so much to catch up on now as I think out loud
When you passed, I was f*ckin' up, still I was a problem child
But we had promises to each other, yeah, I swore and I vowed
I went to college, I graduated, I would've made you proud
I'm 'bout to turn thirty, James is 'bout to turn twenty-seven
He's finding himself still, but I know he'll find that in a second
He graduated from the same school that I went to in NOLA
He lives right up the street from moms, it's crazy as he's gotten older
He's mature beyond his years, he's the best I guy I know
I find the older I get, it's like the less that I know
This world's confusing, sometimes I feel all depressed, filled with gloom
The more and more I understand why you had to hide in that room, f*ck
It's been some time since I had someone I could tell this shit
Celebrity life is full of everyone expecting shit
In 2019, life is crazy, and it's evident, wait
You won't believe this part but Trump was the president
And Leo finally got his Oscar after all
And the Warriors were finally the best team in basketball
Anyways that's all for now, I'll keep it short and sweet
I'll save the rest until the next time we meet (I miss you, Melissa)
I found peace
Hope this moment's brief
Shaded memories
I can hardly speak
I found peace (in our dreams)
I just grit my teeth
Through teary eyes, I see
Smiling back at me
I found peace
I found peace
Yeah, uh
Been seven months since you left
Some nights it hits me harder than others, that's when I get depressed
I play your shit, but I had to stop reading old texts
I shed tears sometimes still, f*ck it, I've been a mess
Knowing myself, I was too proud to ever tell this to you
But since you popped out first, I used to be a lil' jealous of you
I used to hate sometimes, Jameel said, "That's not healthy of you"
But I was broke and unsuccessful, what you expect me to do?
See, us two white boys rappin', felt like they would always compare us
Except you sell out shows across the world from Oakland to Paris
And I was still at my mom's crib, that means I live with my parents
I couldn't sell shit out in my town, I was slightly embarrassed
Fast forward some years, I finally caught up a bit
I always wonder 'bout that time, like if you f*cked with my shit
And then we finally met in Europe, playing festival shows
You watch my set sidestage, I try to flex at them shows
Until I went and watched yours, you burnt that shit down
We talked shit and caught up afterwards, you f*cked with my sound
We clicked, immediately, time passed in a blink
Talking shit, I can't believe that was the first time we linked
What I was going through with Ash', you went through with Ariana
And you would check in on me daily, help me deal with that drama
Come to think of it, we talked like every day last summer
You were like a big brother, crazy that you was younger
It's, only a dream until it happens to you
But no one ever told me these things would be happening too, f*ck
Anyways that's all for now, I'll keep it short and sweet
I'll save the rest until the next time we meet (I miss you, Mac)
I found peace
Hope this moment's brief
Shaded memories
I can hardly speak
I found peace (in our dreams)
I just grit my teeth
Through teary eyes, I see
Smiling back at me
I found peace
I found peace
All the money in the world, I can't find where they selling time
Or a button that rewind, I'm just thinkin', sippin' this wine, let me catch you up
It's been a while, let me catch you up
Yeah, uh
(Scoop Dezel)
Writer: Gerald Gillum, Jacob Reske, Bill Lupton, Oluwaseyi Agbeti, Jamar Rashid, Dakari Gwitira, Halston Williams, Eric Danchick, Matt Shultz
Copyright: Lyrics © Universal Music Publishing Group, CONCORD MUSIC PUBLISHING LLC, Sony/ATV Music Publishing LLC, Kobalt Music Publishing Ltd.
Gerald
You know?
Yeah
Am I still the Gerald that I been from the beginnin'?
Ask ten people, you'll get ten different opinions
Should I be rappin', should I be singin'?
Should he be losin', should he be winnin'?
Should he keep pitchin' still in the ninth inning?
Keep dissin', that's just addin' fuel to my engine
Is he still the Gerald that he been from the beginnin'?
Ask ten people, you'll get ten different opinions (yeah, uh, for real)
Somebody in my life was a best friend to me
Been a minute since my guy sent a text to me
It really say something, think he's judging me
Feel ten miles apart when you're standing next to me
Lifestyles change, people grow apart
Won't happen overnight, this shit had the slowest start
Different shit matter when you open up your heart
Addiction to celebrity could choke you from the start
Crazier than heroine, yeah, this shit hooks you
My uncle died of that, my dad told me, that's a good dude
Never met him, only heard stories where it took you
And I'm just tryna live up to what they think that I should do
'Cause he's got potential, he's that precious
He's that special, he could be Elvis
He should be the biggest, he should put his career first
But no one ever told me, I should go and put me first, yeah
Am I still the Gerald that I been from the beginnin'?
Ask ten people, you'll get ten different opinions
Should I be rappin', should I be singin'?
Should he be losin', should he be winnin'?
Should he keep pitchin' still in the ninth inning?
Keep dissin', that's just addin' fuel to my engine
Is he still the Gerald that he been from the beginnin'?
Ask ten people, you'll get ten different opinions (yeah, for real)
How could he feel lonely when he's always surrounded?
How could he not indulge when he's always around it?
How come he does drugs, could he still do it without it?
How could he fly to heights, somehow still staying grounded?
Some days I really feel like, I could've run for president
Some days I wanna be a self-destructive degenerate
Gettin' high, wasting my time, I'm not regrettin' it
People talking 'bout what I should be doing instead of it
But this is my life, at night I go to bed with it
Got some real demons, can't seem to cut off the head of it
Pay for my decisions, feel like I just lost a bet with it
Maybe my success has been going straight to my head a bit
Maybe I've been listening too much
Maybe I've been drinking all the Kool-Aid and fruit punch
Maybe I got it, should stop tryna find help
Stop looking outside, and look for it in myself (for real)
Am I still the Gerald that I been from the beginnin'?
Ask ten people, you'll get ten different opinions
Should I be rappin', should I be singin'?
Should he be losin', should he be winnin'?
Should he keep pitchin' still in the ninth inning?
Keep dissin', that's just addin' fuel to my engine
Is he still the Gerald that he been from the beginnin'?
Ask ten people, you'll get ten different opinions (I'm me, for real)
Rinse, wash, repeat, learn through repetition
Deliver platinum albums, you take it as a given?
Songs don't write themselves, how you think they're getting written?
Wanna judge me? Then come trade me my position
Everyone is talkin', everyone's reactin'
Take it all for granted, think these things just happen
Every stop, hoppin' off and on the band-waggon
Hate the way I'm livin', criticize my actions
Bought moms a house and the town was hella proud of it
Booked the next day, I did some shit you got a problem with
Almost f*cked up a deal, was high and I was out of it
On a conference call on mushrooms, my words slurred a bit
Remind myself who I am, all the shit I done
Right now I'm top two selling rappers where I'm from
And I ain't number two, that only leaves one
I go out as the biggest f*ckin' artist when I'm done, for real
Is he still the Gerald that he been from the beginnin'?
(Been from the beginnin', been from the beginnin')
Ask ten people, you'll get ten different opinions
(Ten different opinions, ten, ten different opinions)
Is he still the Gerald that he been from the beginnin'?
(Been from the beginning, been from the beginnin')
Is he still the Gerald that he been from the beginnin'?
(I go out as the biggest f*ckin' artist when I'm done, for real)
Haha
Your side (These Things Happen Too)
Tell me you'll love me for a million years
Then if it don't work out
Then you can tell me goodbye
Writer: Gerald Gillum, Cole Marsden Greif-Neill, Dakari Gwitira, Bill Steinberg, Brian Chew, Holly Knight, John Loudermilk
Copyright: Lyrics © Sony/ATV Music Publishing LLC, Kobalt Music Publishing Ltd.