Ghost Fossils - Periphery Lyrics

I can't uncork my state of mind
I've got a little less attention and a lot more time
I've got eyes in the back of my head
Reminding me of all the toxic shit you said

I've got a picture of you living in my memory
And it's a lot less pretty than it used to be
I'm guessing that warning signs
Are just things that I ignore in my periphery

It's alright, I'm ok nothing seems to help much anyway
I can't shut off my thoughts long enough to decide what I should say
So if you see me smiling, know I've numbed myself of you
Long enough to remember that I don't have to

Sometimes I go out
Just to see what other people do
Some of them laugh, some of them cry
And some of them just look confused

Are they really that much better than me?
Because they are according to you
Hit me baby one more time
My loneliness is killing me too

It's alright, I'm ok nothing seems to help much anyway
I can't shut off my thoughts long enough to decide what I should say
So if you see me smiling, know I've numbed myself of you
Long enough to remember that I don't have to