Dirty Secrets Video (MV)

You ever wake up in the morning and wish you were still asleep
Cause once you open up your eyes the images start to creep
Back into your mind your past always stays close
Tryna break your will and push you to lose hope
Back against the ropes fighting every single day
Tryna find the ray of light put some color in all the grey
Cant stay in my mind cause it's one helluva place
Everyday is a race minds moving at a rapid pace
So many I've hurt and stepped on over the years
Facing fears full of tears no longer looking in my rear
Somehow it seems no matter how much I progress
That happy feelings hidden by all the f*cking stress
Of my own mental playing all these little games
Cause I think of the craziest shit it's and sometimes its really strange
How I can be having a perfect moment nothing wrong
Then all of a sudden my mood is consequently gone
Too strong to fight off from dusk to dawn
Thinking about those times kinda makes me feel numb
Might be dumb to you but I dont know what I've done
To deserve this treatment worst of all from myself
I put everyone first and myself up on the shelf
Cause the way I treat myself is a massive violation
Everywhere I look I'm seeking validation
Tryna find my way with the least complications
This road I'm on is scary its a pure abomination
Cause it's like I'm chained im stuck in captivity
Like bad thought and evil is the only activity
That I can produce it's like my mind is a cemetery
With all the skeletons it's like a f*cking mortuary
I got alot of shit buried that I dont want to surface
And most of it aint my fault so why do I deserve this
Whys it seem like I'm the one who has to remain calm
It's ok glyphic no feelings just write another song
Before long I promise your feelings will be good and gone
And you'll be back to yourself healthy and strong
F*ck that I'm human too and I need to get it out
Cause i been suppressing my feels i been in a drought
Tryna keep the perfect smile so everyone is happy
That keeps me on edge and it makes me kinda snappy
Cause when I'm in my mind I'm the perfect villain
Its myself and no one else that I'm slowly killin
When I look in the mirror I only see a foreigner
With overwhelming baggage hiding himself up in the corner
Slowly my soul and essence are starting to fade
Someone stop the voices my sanitys starting to fade
Someone stop the memories I'm starting to fade
Someone stop the thoughts I'm starting to fade
To be honest I dont know if imma make it another day
For me this is honestly like hell on earth
Cause I haven't been comfortable with myself since birth
The path I've chosen has also chose me
I try to correct my wrongs with sincerity and urgency
But somehow no matter how hard I try
My minds relentless and it wont tell me know why
It torments and haunts my every move
I'm getting to the point where I say f*ck it cause I dont know what to do
I honestly just dont even know anymore
Why do I do this to myself every single day
You know no ones perfect
Make your move