I struggle with ill intentions yeah maybe more than most
But I saw the sun rise pouring light up on the coast
I wish I was pouring light I wish I wasn't pouring Tos
And my wish is my command but I ain't strong enough to cope
The formation of your face has me clinging on to hope
Inability to change my past has grabbed me by the throat
When I try to make amends my words get caught up and I choke
But I promise real pain In these lyrics that I wrote
I chose a path that's filled with just as much beauty as pain
But I ignored the former and sunshine felt like standing in rain
I ignored the former abusing drugs n it snuffed out my flame
Cuz I been having nightmares in this bed that I made
To get up out this hole an NDEs what I need
Time is cruel it made me crueller that's what happened to me
But there's a light in this tunnel that's been waiting for me
Then maybe someday somewhere you'll be happy for me