Me Attacking Me Video (MV)

It was mental woes and doctor's lows
Misdiagnosed, overdosed
It was real dry skin and excusing
It for being winter
It was burning hives and groggy eyes
Hospitalized, fought for my life
It was my whole world turning upside down
And flipping it back around

I wish my body was fine
Wish it felt like it's mine
Don't wanna fight everyday to survive
Nobody sees this shit
I'm invisibly sick
And tired
All I ever feel is me attacking me
Me attacking me

I'm strained and drained from chronic pain
Body aches, oh god I hate
That I specialize in faking smiles
So I can just get by
In an ableist's world, I look cured
A perfect girl who's never been hurt
In an ableist's mind I pass alright
I mask to get through life
But

I wish my body was fine
Wish it felt like it's mine
Don't wanna fight everyday to survive
Nobody sees this shit
I'm invisibly sick
And tired
All I ever feel is me attacking me
Me attacking me

Over
It's never over
Closure
What the hell's closure
Forward
Have to move forward
Mourn what's lost
And somehow start all
Over
It's never over
Closure
What the hell's closure
Forward
Have to move forward
Mourn what's lost
And somehow start all over
Over

I wish my body was fine
Wish it felt like it's mine
Don't wanna fight everyday to survive
Nobody sees this shit
I'm invisibly sick
And tired
All I ever feel is me attacking me
Me attacking me

I wish my body was fine
Wish it felt like it's mine
Don't wanna fight everyday to survive
Nobody sees this shit
I'm invisibly sick
And tired
All I ever feel is me attacking me
Me attacking me