Picking Petals Video (MV)

It was my choice to leave you
To say goodbye
It was my choice to throw away
All those memories of mine
Then suddenly you walk in
And I'm put under your spell
And then I'm back to square one
Why am I hurting
Why am I crying
Why am I stuck with this pain
Why did I tell you
I didn't want you
When all I was trying to say
Is I love you
But I was scared to say that I love you
So I pushed you away
But I love you
And I know I'm f*cked up
And I know I shut down
But I get corrupt when you're not around
So this is me saying I'm sorry and I want you
But I understand that you don't want me too
You put me on a pedestal
And I pushed it aside
And now I'm here realizing
That a part of me just died
Then suddenly you walk in
And I'm put under your spell
And then I'm back to square one
Why am I hurting
Why am I crying
Why am I stuck with this pain
Why did I tell you
I didn't want you
When all I was trying to say
Is I love you
But I was scared to say that I love you
So I pushed you away
But I love you
And I know I'm f*cked up
And I know I shut down
But I get corrupt when you're not around
So this is me saying I'm sorry and I want you
But I understand that you don't want me too
Picking petals off of flowers and I'm asking for a sign
Knowing deep down that I blew it and that it's a waste of time
But I'm asking
Does he love me or does he not
Does he love me or does he not
Does he love me
Does he not
Does he love me or does he not
Does he love me or does he not
Does he love me
Does he not
Why am I hurting
Why am I crying
Why am I stuck with this pain
Why did I tell you I didn't want you
When all I was trying to say
Why am I hurting
Why am I crying
Why am I stuck with this pain
Why did I tell you
I didn't want you
When all I was trying to say
Is I love you
But I was scared to say that I love you
So I pushed you away
But I love you
And I know I'm f*cked up
And I know I shut down
But I get corrupt when you're not around
So this is me saying I'm sorry and I want you
But I understand that you don't want me too