Ativan Video (MV)

I'm taking pills to clear my head
'Cause I've been wishing I was dead
And I don't know if it's helped yet
But I've learned not to expect anything
I know I'll never be the person that you need me to
I've accepted it, but I'll always try
Because I don't know if I can make it on my own
A faded memory of happiness is all that's left
Now I'm manic and depressive
And all I ever do is fantasize

Have you noticed that I can't control my emotions lately?
And maybe I'm just paranoid,
But I feel like everybody hates me
I spend all my time thinking about the past
And the way that I'm perceived
Because I'm not as strong as I pretend
And I'm constantly suffering

I'm hopeless and a broken mess

And when I told you, did you think that things could change?
It's never gonna come out better than it is
I'm up and down
And inside out
It chews me up and spits me out

Have you noticed that I can't control my emotions lately?
And maybe I'm just paranoid,
But I feel like everybody hates me
I spend all my time thinking about the past
And the way that I'm perceived
Because I'm not as strong as I pretend
And I'm constantly suffering

And when I told you, did you think that things could change?
I'm hopeless and a broken mess