Hazy - Not Okay Lyrics

I wish I knew
What to say
That would make
It all go away
But I can't and I won't and I don't and I know
That it's not going to get better

I close
The door
So you don't see me cry
Can't let you see me
I don't know why
I'm afraid to let you know how I'm feeling
I'm afraid to let you know

That I'm not okay, I'm not okay
I tried to change, I tried to change
My head is twisting, it's gone missing
And I'm not okay today
I hide behind my tears
I hide behind my fears
I'm not okay, not okay, not okay
Not okay today

I wish that you
Didn't have to see
All the different ugly
Parts of me
That's why I disappear, why I disappear
Don't worry, don't worry

But I wish that you
Would knock on my door
Say I don't want you to feel ignored
No no no, cuz

I'm not okay, I'm not okay
I tried to change, I tried to change
My heart is racing, now I'm pacing
And I'm not okay today
I hide behind my tears
I hide behind my fears
I'm not okay, not okay, not okay
Not okay today

And I don't want
Don't want you to see me
Don't want you to see me like this while I'm down
And I'd never known what it was like
To cry myself to sleep until last night
And it's just a matter of time
Til I completely lose my mind

Cuz
I'm not okay, I'm not okay
I tried to change, I tried to change
My heart is racing, now I'm pacing
And I'm not okay today
I hide behind my tears
I hide behind my fears
I'm not okay, not okay, not okay
Not okay today

And I don't want
Don't want you to see me
Don't want you to see me like this while I'm down

Cuz
I'm not okay, I'm not okay
I'm not okay, I'm not okay
I'm not okay, not okay, not okay
Not okay today