Homonym - 10/01 Lyrics

You woke up to me thrashing around
I was beating my chest to the ground
And you pulled me to shore
Like the three nights before
And waited as I came around
Said it's probably the alcohol or stress
The last loyal friends I possess
And the holidays alone
Were a brief stepping stone
To my impending loneliness
And what if I were to tell you the worst isn't over
Tonight at the bar as we try to get sober
Another night of you telling me you want to
Go back to that place you belong to
Like the Bible you were too hard to read
I just picked out the parts I believed
Until all that you'd hide would remain stuck inside
From the light and the air that you breathe
And all the signs say that I am but one of a kind
An endangered animal, the last one you'll find
And I'm way past the point that I ask myself why
I'll just sing out my heart for the rest of my life
It's not over
It's not happening
It's not floating away
It's not landing
It's not the ocean
Nor dry land
There's no full stop
No ampersand
It's not pointless
You're not helping
It's not rigid
It's not bending
Cause you're eating
But I'm paying
I'm not hearing what you're saying
It's not the bottle
Or your paintbrush
It's not the mothers who have raised us
It's you're leaving
But I'm staying
To start living
No more waiting