Hones-T - Right Before Lyrics

All these
Places that I find to hide myself
Don't last long, I'm too loud to conceal
My f*cked-up intentions and nasty scabs
That I pick so they never heal
I'd like to dig a six by three-foot hole
Eight feet deep
Then throw in my doubts and instability
My shitty temper, and insecurities
Then fill that hole with cement
Before it dries, I'll vandalize
The wet concrete with what I meant
I meant well when I was yelling
I'm sorry you miss your family
I'm never there to lift you when you're down
So here's a box of cards I wrote you
For every 'thank you' you deserve
For every dark night crying you held me
Until I felt okay enough to fall asleep
Asleep, asleep, asleep
I'd love a brand-new start
But some things went too far
I kicked your feet right out from under you
While you were trying not to fall apart
No 'sorry' is enough
A thousand times won't change a thing
If you want change then I swear change
Is what you'll get, I'm sorry Maddie
I love you, and I trust you
And I won't hurt you anymore
I deserve to die, please don't cry
I will be better this time
If it takes a life time
I'll make things right
I've gotta make this right
Right tonight