Illenium Album Lyrics by Illenium

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Starfall

You're my starfall like a sunrise
I'm a wanderer through night
You're the break of dawn, a burst of life
I am yours and you are mine
You're my starfall like a sunrise
I'm a wanderer through night
You're the break of dawn, a burst of life
I am yours and you are mine

You are mine, you are mine, you are mine
You are mine, you are mine, you are mine
I am yours and you are mine
I am yours and you are mine
I am yours and you are mine

I am yours and you are mine
I am yours and you are mine

I am yours and you are mine
You are mine, you are mine
You are mine, you are mine
You are mine, you are mine
I am yours and you are mine

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All That Really Matters

Learning how to live when there's no one around
It's like learnin' how to feel when the drugs run out
You can see my scars 'cause I'm wearin' them proud
Even with my broken parts, I feel better now

If I could crawl in my mind
And give any advice to my younger self

Find something you can hold onto
Find someone who'll be there for you
'Cause that's all that really matters in the end
Find somewhere you can come home to
Find someone that'll die for you
'Cause that's all that really matters in the end

Is love, love, love
'Cause it's all that really matters in the end
'Cause it's all that really matters in the end

It's hard to tell the truth when you lie to yourself
Always give too much of you to someone else
I'm talkin' to you now like we're all friends
It will never be too late to start again

Find something you can hold onto
Find someone who'll be there for you
'Cause that's all that really matters in the end
Find someone you can come home to
Find someone that'll die for you (die for you)
'Cause it's all that really matters in the end

Is love, love, love
'Cause it's all that really matters in the end

Find something you can hold onto
Find someone who'll be there for you
'Cause that's all that really matters in the end
Find someone you can come home to
Find someone that'll die for you
'Cause that's all that really matters in the end

Is love, love, love
Love, love, love
Because that's all that really matters in the end
Is love, love, love
Love, love, love
It's all that really matters in the end
(Is love, love, love)

'Cause that's all that really matters in the end
'Cause that's all that really matters in the end

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Worst Day

Felt my life about to change
Close my eyes and had a dream
About a lonely place
Where flowers only bloom in gray
All the magic turned to dust
Only memories left of us
That soon will fade away
With words I never got to say
Almost lost the one thing I got right

Could've been the worst day of my life
Could've been the worst day of my life, I
Thought that I would have to say goodbye
Could've been the worst day of my life, of my life
Just when I felt you slippin' out my hands
I guess that Heaven had another plan
Oh, oh
Could've been the worst day of my life

(Ooh)

I'll never see that tree the same
The one that we both carved our names
Into with razor blades
Then made out in the summer rain
Oh, I almost lost you like that
Oh, don't wanna think about that
Oh don't wanna think about that
The thought that you never comin' back

Could've been the worst day of my life
Could've been the worst day of my life, I
Thought that I would have to say goodbye
Could've been the worst day of my life, of my life
Just when I felt you slippin' out my hands
I guess that Heaven had another plan
Oh, oh
Could've been the worst day
Just when I felt you slippin' out my hands
I guess that Heaven had another plan
Oh, oh
Could've been the worst day of my life

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From The Ashes

I've been here before
If you want, go ahead, start a war
It's not that I'm brave
It's that I would rather die
Then for things to stay this way

Losing means nothing
If there's nothing to lose

What do you want from me tonight?
You wanna burn down everything in sight
I'm not afraid of a little fire
So light your matches
And I will rise from the ashes

From the ashes
From the ashes (the ashes, the ashes)
So light your matches (the ashes)
And I will rise from the ashes

From the ashes

The flames fill my lungs
Burning out everything I've become
It's not that I'm brave, no
It's that I've been here before
And I know I'll be okay

Losing means nothing
If there's nothing to lose

What do you want from me tonight?
You wanna burn down everything in sight
I'm not afraid of a little fire
So light your matches
And I will rise from the ashes

From the ashes
From the ashes (the ashes, the ashes)
So light your matches (the ashes)
And I will rise from the ashes

From the ashes

So light your matches
And I will rise from the ashes

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Lifeline

Got no time for this life
Drowning tonight, tryna grab onto the lifeline

It's time to die, I know that I could cry tonight
But I just wanna disappear
Before my body's laying here
Soulless and passed out

Was lost when you found me
Your spirit surrounds me
So lonely, so lonely
When will I find you there?

Got no time for this life
Drowning tonight, tryna grab onto the lifeline
Sleepless nights, I'm not alright
Drowning tonight, tryna grab on to the lifeline

The fence is broke, the safety's gone
No weapon left to guard my heart
I wanna run, but running's hard
When did my legs fall apart?

Was lost when you found me
Your spirit surrounds me
So lonely, so lonely
When will I find you there?

Got no time for this life
Drowning tonight, tryna grab onto the lifeline
Sleepless nights, I'm not alright
Drowning tonight, tryna grab on to the lifeline

I destroy everything, I destroy it
I destroy everything, I destroy it all
I destroy everything, I destroy it
I destroy everything, I destroy it all
I destroy everything, I destroy it
I destroy everything, I destroy it all
I destroy everything, I destroy it
I destroy, I destroy

Got no time for this life
Drowning tonight, tryna grab onto the lifeline
Sleepless nights, I'm not alright
Drowning tonight, tryna grab on to the lifeline

Will you save me, tell me, will you save me?
Will you save me, tell me, will you save me?
Will you save me, tell me, will you save me?
Will you save me, tell me, will you save me?
Will you save me, tell me, will you save me?
Will you save me, tell me, will you save me?
Will you save me, tell me, will you save me?
Will you save me, tell me, will you save me?

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Eyes Wide Shut

I say I love you, but I don't
I say I'm fine, but I'm miserable

I'm dead, but you probably can't tell
Been scalin' the walls of the wishin' well
My head's in the sky, but I'm fallin' backwards, yeah
And night crawlin', I'm wide awake in my dreams
Wake up and I don't know what anything means
We're completely different people than the people we wanted

Have we outgrown this city? I'm so tired
Of wishin' I was somewhere different from where you are
With my eyes wide shut

I say I love you, but I don't
I say I'm fine, but I'm miserable
Oh, 'cause I don't get high off you anymore
And no, I don't get high off you anymore

Smilin' into the mirror like a psychopath
Can't remember the last time you made me laugh
Dryin' tears with my lipstick
You're the first on my hit list

Have we outgrown this city? I'm so tired
Of wishin' I was somewhere different from where you are
With my eyes wide shut

I say I love you, but I don't
I say I'm fine, but I'm miserable
Oh, 'cause I don't get high off you anymore
And no, I don't get high off you

Have we outgrown this city?
Wish I were somewhere different from where you are
Have we outgrown this city?
Or have I gone missing in the dark?

I say I love you, but I don't (but I don't)
I say I'm fine, but I'm miserable (I'm miserable)
Oh, 'cause I don't get high off you anymore
And no, I don't get high off you (I don't get, I don't get)
Anymore

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Shivering

Can you feel me shivering
In the corners of your heart?
Just a frozen memory
To remind you who we were
All this time I burned alive
'Til you found someone else
So every time you think of me
Can you feel me shivering?

So lost in your memory
Feels like an echo in the dark
You see what you wanna see
Fingertips wrapped around my heart
I know yours is the wandering kind
Cold blood when it opens and closes
I'm a sickness inside of your mind
And nothing can be when I'm frozen

Can you feel me shivering
In the corners of your heart?
Just a frozen memory
To remind you who we were
All this time I burned alive
'Til you found someone else
So every time you think of me
Can you feel me shivering?

Can you feel me shivering?
Can you feel me shivering?
Can you feel me shivering?
Can you feel me shivering?
Can you feel me shivering?
Can you feel me shivering?
So every time you think of me
Can you feel me shivering?

Can you feel me shivering?

Can you feel me shivering?
Can you feel me shivering?
Can you feel me shivering?
Can you feel me shivering?
Can you feel me shivering?
Can you feel me shivering?
So every time you think of me
Can you feel me shivering?

Can you feel me shivering?

Can you feel me shivering?

I know, I know you're scared to see
Why we became a tragedy
I know, I know you're scared to see
Why we became a tragedy
I know, I know you're scared to see
Why we became a tragedy
I know, I know you're scared to see
Why we became a tragedy

So every time you think of me
Can you feel me shivering?

Can you feel me shivering
In the corners of your heart?
Just a frozen memory
To remind you who we were
All this time I burned alive
'Til you found someone else
So every time you think of me
Can you feel me shivering?

(Shivering, shivering, shivering, shivering)
(Shivering, shivering, shivering, shivering)

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You Were Right

Have you ever felt like nothing?
Heart beats, but the blood's not rushin'
I tell myself that everything is fine
But deep inside I know that it's just a lie

Light out on the open road
Cold callers on the broken phone
Don't want to even notice you're gone
But I was so wrong

Turns out that I need you
I thought it couldn't be truth
And I don't think I'll get through
Another night (another night)
To wake up in an empty bed
Echoes of the words you said
That you would never leave my head
And you were right
Yeah, you were right

You were right
Yeah, you were right
Said you'd never leave my head
Yeah, you were right
You were right, you were right

Have you ever felt like running?
Look down, and your feet aren't budging
'Cause every time I try to get to you
I think I went for miles and I didn't even move

Life now is an uphill road
Cold calling, but there's no one home
Thought I wouldn't even notice you're gone
But I was so wrong

Turns out that I need you
I thought it couldn't be truth
But I don't think I'll get through
Another night (another night)
To wake up in an empty bed
Echoes of the words you said
That you would never leave my head
And you were right

You were everything I need
All the air I'd ever breath
Only light that I can see
Yeah, you were right, you were right
'Cause now I'm only seein' red
I'll remember what you said
That you wouldnever leave my head
Well, you were right, you were right

Turns out that I need you
I thought it couldn't be truth
But I don't think I'll get through
Another night
To wake up in an empty bed
Echoes of the words you said
That you will never leave my head
And you were right

Turns out that I need you
I thought it couldn't be truth
But I don't think I'll get through
Another night (another night)
To wake up in an empty bed
Echoes of the words you said
That you would never leave my head
But you were right
You were right, you were right

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Insanity

Fake love and breakups are my best habit
Wake up and take something, right back at it
When you get too close, that's when I let go, yeah
If there's a whip, well, then I might crash it
If there's a hotel, then I might smash it
You get too close, that's when I let go

One hundred and twenty the pedal, I up the level
My spirit is out of my vessel, I'm off the Henno
The devil's all up in my bezel, that's heavy metal
And no one could tell me to settle, yeah, yeah

Don't jump this wave, 'cause you might drown
Don't build me up, I'll let you down
You say it's insanity, but
I say that's my life
I fill my lungs with everything
You want someone that I can't be
You say it's insanity, but
I say that's my life

(I say that's my life)

Woke up in your bed, don't know what happened
I lost my clothes and I ripped my jacket
You said I should pump brake, but I can't slow down

One hundred and twenty the pedal, I up the level
My spirit is out of my vessel, I'm off the Henno
The devil's all up in my bezel, that's heavy metal
And no one could tell me to settle, yeah, yeah

Don't jump this wave, 'cause you might drown
Don't build me up, I'll let you down
You say it's insanity, but
I say that's my life
I fill my lungs with everything
You want someone that I can't be
You say it's insanity, but
I say that's my life

(Insanity, insanity)
Insanity, I say that's my life

Don't jump this wave, 'cause you might drown
Don't build me up, I'll let you down
You say it's insanity, but
I say that's my life

Don't jump this wave, 'cause you might drown
Don't build me up, I'll let you down
You say it's insanity, but
I say that's my life
I fill my lungs with everything
You want someone that I can't be
You say it's insanity, but
I say that's my life

(Insanity, insanity)

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Drwn

I feel drown with me

I feel drown with me
I feel drown with me
I feel drown with me
I feel drown with me

(Who will fix me, when I'm down, when I'm down?)
(Save me from myself, don't let me-me-)
(Who will fix me, when I'm down, when I'm down?)
(Save me from myself, don't let me-me-)

(Me-me, let, me-me)
(Me-me, let, me-me)
(Don't let me drown)
(Let me drown, let me drown)

I feel drown with me

I feel drown with me
I feel drown with me

(Who will fix me, when I'm down, when I'm down?)
(Save me from myself, don't let me-me-)
(Who will fix me, when I'm down, when I'm down?)
(Save me from myself, don't let me-me-)

(Me-me, let, me-me)
(Me-me, let, me-me)
(Don't let me drown)
(Let me drown, let me drown)

(I feel drown with me)

I feel drown with me
I feel drown with me

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Other Side

Goddamn, how'd I end up here?
My dreams, they all turn to nightmares
I'm not the same since that November
I know that you don't deserve this
My problems, my fight and your shit
I got them tangled up together

I won't blame you
If you walk away

But won't you stay?
I got a battle here to fight
Don't know if I'll ever see the light
But won't you stay?
I don't need much from you tonight
Just tell me you'll meet me there alive

On the other side
Woo-ooh-ooh
Woo-ooh-ooh
Woo-ooh-ooh
On the other side

On the other side
On the other side

I wasn't always like this
Sixteen and naïve, a good kid
My mom and dad never saw it coming
But now I'm stuck in the trenches
Crawling through my consequences
I guess it's time I stopped the running

I won't blame you
If you walk away

But won't you stay?
I got a battle here to fight
Don't know if I'll ever see the light
But won't you stay?
I don't need much from you tonight
Just tell me you'll meet me there alive

On the other side
Woo-ooh-ooh
Woo-ooh-ooh
Woo-ooh-ooh
On the other side

On the other side
On the other side
Woo-ooh-ooh, oh

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I Want You 2 (Stay)

I want you to stay
I want you to stay
I want you to stay
I want you to stay
Ooh, ooh
Woo-ooh, woo-ooh
I want you to stay

I want you to stay
Ooh, ooh
I want you to stay
Woo-ooh, woo-ooh
I want you to stay
I want you to stay

Ooh, ooh
Woo-ooh, woo-ooh
I want you to stay
I want you to stay
I want you to stay
I want you to stay
I want you to stay

I want you to stay
I want you to stay
I want you to stay
Ooh, ooh
I want you to stay
I want you to stay

I want you to stay
I want you to stay
I want you to stay

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With All My Heart

If I measured my mistakes
And the decisions that I've made
They're like a song I wrote with foolish words I can't erase
And I hope that when I'm gone
You'll forgive me all my wrongs
Say a prayer for me, I know I don't deserve your love, yeah

I used to hear 'em say
People don't ever change
But I'm growing out of who I was, yeah
Two rights don't fix a wrong
But I know it won't be long
'Til you turn me from the man I was

So with all my heart, I'm gonna love
With all my heart, I'm gonna trust
With all my heart, I'm gonna give you everything
So with all my heart, I'm gonna try
To play my part, to turn on the lights
When things get dark, I'm gonna give you everything

(With all my, with all my, with all my heart)
(With all my, with all my, with all my heart)
(With all my, with all my, with all my heart)
I'm gonna give you everything

Don't wanna look at where I've been
I wanna look at where I am goin'
Let my mess become my message, it made me who I am

I used to hear 'em say
People don't ever change
But I'm growing out of who I was, yeah
Two rights don't fix a wrong
But I know it won't be long
'Til you turn me from the man I was

So with all my heart, I'm gonna love
With all my heart, I'm gonna trust
With all my heart, I'm gonna give you everything
So with all my heart, I'm gonna try
To play my part, to turn on the lights
When things get dark, I'm gonna give you everything

(With all my, with all my, with all my heart)
(With all my, with all my, with all my heart)
(With all my, with all my, with all my heart)
I'm gonna give you everything

(With all my, with all my, with all my heart)
(With all my, with all my, with all my heart)
(With all my, with all my, with all my heart)
(With all my, with all my heart)

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Back To You

Had a bad dream on the operating table
I tried to scream, but I wasn't able
They replace my veins with cables
Now I'll never be the same again
I can't reach out your spirit
I can see the light, but I can't get near it
Echoes of your voice, but I can't quite hear it
How did we end up here?

I spent a lifetime lost
A generation of letting go
And now the daylight can't break through
It's another way back to you
Another two years gone
I spent forever letting go
And I don't wanna face the truth
It's a long way back to you

The light of day, slowly fade into sleepless nights
Lie awake, empty space, it's a waste of time
Push and pull, give and take
Couldn't make you mine, no-oh

And I just wanna recharge your spirit
I can see a light, but I can't get near it
Echoes of your voice, but I can't quite hear it
How did we end up here?

I spent a lifetime lost
A generation of letting go
And now the daylight can't break through
It's another way back to you
Another two years gone
I spent forever letting go
And I don't wanna face the truth
It's a long way back to you

If everything heals with time
Then why is our flame dying?
If you don't want to get this right
Then why are we still trying?
If everything heals with time
Then why is our flame dying?
If you don't want to get this right
Then why are we still trying?

If everything heals with time
Then why is our flame dying?
If you don't want to get it right
Then why are we still trying?
If everything heals with time (I spent a lifetime lost)
Then why is our flame dying? (A generation of letting go)
If you don't want to get it right (and now the daylight can't break through)
Then why are we still trying? (It's another way back to you)
If everything heals with time (another two years gone)
Then why is our flame dying? (I spent forever letting go)
If you don't want to get it right (and I don't wanna face the truth)
Then why are we still trying? (It's a long way back to you)

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Nothing Ever After

If you fall, then I will too
Into nothing ever after
'Til we have to face the truth
I look away, neglect the wounds

All the warning signs we refused to see
Like a hurricane that's drowning me
So we build it up
Just to tear it down
But the pieces don't fit now

We're fallin' apart
We're fading away
Pretending that damage doesn't matter
Ignoring the scars
But now it's too late
We settle for nothing ever after
Let's slip away

We've been dreaming wide awake
Feeding poison to each other
It's too hard to walk away
'Cause it's easier to suffer

So we build it up
Just to tear it down
But the pieces don't fit now

We're fallin' apart
We're fading away
Pretending that damage doesn't matter
Ignoring the scars
When now it's too late
We settle for nothing ever after
Let's slip away

After
After

We're fallin' apart
We're fading away
Pretending that damage doesn't matter
Ignoring the scars
And now it's too late
We'll settle for nothing ever after
Let's slip away

Let's slip away
Let's slip away

We're fallin' apart
We're fading away
Pretending that damage doesn't matter
Ignoring the scars
When now it's too late
We settle for nothing ever after

Ever after
Ever after
Ever after
We settle for nothing
Ever after

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Luv Me A Little

I'm caught in the way that you talk like you don't wanna know
I gave you the world but you let it go
And are you away with the night and my days here for so long
Darling, I'll wait for you coming home, mm

Tripping up over words, calling
And I can't take it anymore
You know that I've heard it all before

So please just say something different
Say we're not finished yet
Tell me I'm weighing on your mind
Baby, won't ya say something different? (Say)
Don't tear me down again (no)
'Cause I've been praying that you might
Still love me a little

(Woo-ooh-ooh-ooh-ooh-ooh)
(Woo-ooh-ooh-ooh)
(Woo-ooh-ooh-ooh-ooh-ooh)
Still love me a little
(I'm just enough, I'm just enough for me)
(I'm just enough for me)
Still love me a little
(I'm just enough, I'm just enough for me)
(I'm just enough for me)
Still love me a little

I hate the words that you say when you're wishing me well
Like I need some time to be on my own
But it makes me sick to think of you with somebody else
And darling, I'll wait for you coming home

Tripping up over words, calling
And I can't take it anymore
You know that I've heard it all before

So please just say something different
Say we're not finished yet
Tell me I'm weighing on your mind
Baby, won't ya say something different? (Say)
Don't tear me down again (no)
'Cause I've been praying that you might
Still love me a little

Still love me a little
(I'm just enough, I'm just enough for me)
(I'm just enough for me)
Still love me a little
(I'm just enough, I'm just enough for me)
(I'm just enough for me)
Still love me a little

(Woo-ooh-ooh-ooh-ooh-ooh)
Love me a little (woo-ooh-ooh-ooh)
(Woo-ooh-ooh-ooh-ooh-ooh)
Still love me a little