I Really Want To Video (MV)

Limp lungs
The ventilator
The bleeping dot
Blood clots
Nurses running
But there ain't a lot
Songs sung in the key of E minor
Minor problems
Turn to major problems
Then there's major problems everywhere
This ain't fair
I'm gonna lick this Larry
I'm gonna stick this maybe
They gonna flick this switch
You better calm down baby
He's gotta beat this shit
Mom is crying
Crazy
Hardly ever seen it
But I seen it
Kenzie
Lean in closer
And be nice
I don't have time to talk
No time
Pull this chord
But don't flinch
Gotta stop this mentality
Feeling sick
I'm feeling
Sicker than a mother f*cker
Dying right now
Why the hell
Are you pissed at me bitch
I say nothing
But she tells me
I'm being a dick
Oh I'm sorry
You stayed on that Depo shot
For such a long time
Like shit mother f*cker

Can't picture
Can't imagine this
Without you
And I can't picture it
Even though I want to
And I can't picture
Can't imagine this
And I really want to
I really want to
B-baby baby
Can't picture
Can't imagine this
Without you
And I can't picture it
Even though I want to
And I can't picture
Can't imagine this
And I really want to
I really want to

I ain't ignoring you
I'm just listening
Papaw's dying right now
I'm existing
The sun's going down on his life
A small flicker of light
And you're trying to start a fight
But the clock is ticking
I should've accounted for this
But I don't Quicken
Situation washed over me
But it was just trickling
She say she breaking up with me
I lose my temperament
And break the composure
That was keeping my temper in
Temperature is blood boiling
This shit is heating up
Brain's uncoiling
She needs to shut the f*ck up
Can't handle her shit right now
It's like a permanent period
How does she react like this
Wow
Super crazy bitch cow
She fat as f*ck
I don't want her to utter
A word now
Always wearing makeup
Like a clown
Wanna get
Something to cry about
How 'bout I stick it downtown
And show this bitch
The true meaning
Of being down with the brown cow
Oh

Can't picture
Can't imagine this
Without you
And I can't picture it
Even though I want to
And I can't picture
Can't imagine this
And I really want to
I really want to
B-baby baby
Can't picture
Can't imagine this
Without you
And I can't picture it
Even though I want to
And I can't picture
Can't imagine this
And I really want to
I really want to

But I don't wanna lose you
Because if I lose you
Your love
Is drugs to me
Need a fix
To let my heart keep beating
No I don't wanna lose you
And why the hell would I choose to
Your love
Is drugs to me
If I don't ween from you
I'll die right after you leave
Coming off this flatline
Called it like a landline
Popping off at the mouth
Blowing up like a landmine
Insecurity
Brings out the worst in you
I'm in a fragile state
But your insecurity
Makes you agile in the brain
Jumping to conclusions
Like a ninja doing CrossFit
Or toddlers in a ball pit
Or people doing
What the f*ck ever
F*cking real rich
The way you telling me
I'm never paying enough
Mother f*cking
Attention to you
Bitch
Who's the money in the bank
Huh
Gas in the tank
Huh
Mother f*cker you leaned on
For f*cking everything
Huh
I didn't tell you
To ignore your friends
Or not make amends
With all of the people
You cut out
But in the end
It shouldn't even matter
Like that song by Linkin Park
Or a lighter without a spark
Or a tire without a car
But what the f*ck ever
You knew the deal
I never said it
But you knew I loved you
With all of my heart
Kenzie
Please
Kenzie

Can't picture
Can't imagine this
Without you
And I can't picture it
Even though I want to
And I can't picture
Can't imagine this
And I really want to
I really want to
B-baby baby
Can't picture
Can't imagine this
Without you
And I can't picture it
Even though I want to
And I can't picture
Can't imagine this
And I really want to
I really want to