iLLFaith - Fixation (feat. RainingOnRoses) Lyrics

With each song I am so nervous
Walk the talk and go the furthest
Hoping you will be left wordless
But instead I'm feeling worthless
Have I lived and served my purpose?
Barely clinging to the surface.
Throw up sorrow, wine red curses
Breath borrowed that I can't purchase

I've got some shit I need to get off my chest
I've been stuck in my head and I know it's not the best
With all I put out, it's hard to feel blessed
Trying every single day to not Smith and Wess
I've got some shit I need to get off my chest
I've been stuck in my head and I know it's not the best
With all I put out, it's hard to feel blessed
Trying every single day to not Smith and Wess

I need you I am so broken
I can't speak I know I'm choking
Understand that I'm not joking
Not much longer I'll be going
I can't breath this shit is hopeless
You are still my main focus
Kind of crazy girl I know it
I can love you let me show it
Miss you here beside me
I know I left you crying
But girl I'm f*cking dying
I promise that I'm trying
I know you don't believe That
But girl I f*cking mean that

Hold my breath
Can't take this stress
Live my life
I'm so depressed
Why am I here
I don't even know, I
Really don't care
If Your by my side
Hold my breath
Can't take this stress
Live my life
I'm so depressed
Why am I here
I don't even know, I
Really don't care
If Your by my side

Hold my breath
Can't take this stress
Live my life
I'm so depressed
Why am I here
I don't even know, I
Really don't care
If your by my side
Hold my breath
Can't take this stress
Live my life
I'm so depressed
Why am I here
I don't even know, I
Really don't care
If your by my side

It's therapeutic to write out how I feel
The drugs, the pain, the daily ordeal
Only few of you know exactly what's real
The rest just see the hand that I deal
Can't undo this mask, it won't seem to peel
Black and white outside, internally won't heal
Stitching's' torn apart, revealing whats concealed
Heart slowly failing as I turn the wheel

I've got some shit I need to get off my chest
I've been stuck in my head and I know it's not the best
With all I put out, it's hard to feel blessed
Trying every single day to not Smith and Wess
I've got some shit I need to get off my chest
I've been stuck in my head and I know it's not the best
With all I put out, it's hard to feel blessed
Trying every single day to not Smith and Wess