This heart of mine
It loves so deep
I can't turn that off
There's no half measures after I let you in
When the intentions were clear
That this would be more
More than just something physical
I haven't feared my well being
For the longest time
But drowning on this love that I bleed
And these thoughts of you
Is too much this late at night
Or early mourning
When I'd do anything to keep you afloat
And holding my breath indefinitely
Is the only way to stop
This heart of mine
Beating for two
And by two
It's mainly you
If it wasn't for my circles
These family and friends that care
I would've left this place already
I couldn't do that to them
Not when they've been
Crushed like that before
Maybe it runs in my blood
Genetic
Hereditary
Time heals all wounds
But each day it's getting harder
For me to use the above as an excuse
For much longer
They were there for me last time
It got this dark
And saved me
I can't expect them to always
Hold my head above the water
When I'm like this though
This weight I'm carrying
Shoulders
Chest
And conscience
It's too much
And I'm struggling with the internal battle
Of not wanting to be a burden anymore
If there are an infinite number
Of parallel universes
I've come to the conclusion
That this weight is amplified
By the fact that
This is the only universe
Where I lost you