I saw the clouds make the hills disappear
I heard your voice blaspheme my name
I thought about the sky and my place in it
He rose, that's my fault, I still regret
I know he don't remember my voice
But I hear his
And every time I think about his name I see scars
I am done playing, I will be a pioneer
I'll kill myself 'cause it will be my year
I hate, the touch, the rush, the wraith
And I would kill, for one hit of your sweet distaste
It was a child you touched, it was my life you f*cked
Now my mind rapes me fiercer than he did
I know he don't remember my voice
But I hear his
And every time I think about his name I see scars
I am done playing, I will be a pioneer
I'll kill myself 'cause it will be my year
Now in the first there was hope and in the second there was love
In the third there was salvation when my heaven called from above
But after this came respite as the devil take's his toll and after all of this
You'll never watch me grow old
So we can burn ourselves tonight, in sex and drugs and songs
And you can try to touch my body while I try to kiss you warm
But after all of this, I still won't know what you've done
And you will leave me stranded here, wondering why you're on the run
How many times a day do you lie
How many time a week do you cry
How many times a month do you love
How many times a life do you die