This all began
With one question
Asking God to
Please give me directions
I wasn't sure
That He would answer
Yet He did, faster than I planned
So I ignored His answers
I once told Him He can have my life
While my habits hadn't changed
And I kept doing my life the way I saw fit
It's was more HERE God
Here is a fraction of my time
Maybe less not more
I got a busy life
I got things to explore
And the time came along
The homies wanted to explore
So I joined the commonality of interests
7 years later I'm still interested
The beauty of mental exploration
Outweighed my revelation that
Jesus is King
I took my life in my own hands
And I would control it like a joy stick
Thinkin' I can hit pause when
My life gets thick
But I don't think cuz I'm rich
Meanwhile people around me are losing homes
Husbands are cheating, little girls being mothers
Children grow in up without fathers
It's a disaster
And yet
We turn our heads away
As kids get raped their way through childhood
Minds shattered before the comprehension of what romantic love should be like
Like the most amazing thing
And knowing what goes on
How can I turn my eye
And act like life is gonna fly by
Just like it does in mine
It's so much easier for me to avoid
Easier to turn my mind off and ignore
Ignore the voice that's within me
A powerful force making shifts
That I don't see
Until my heart is breakin'
From the sin that has made me
I'm stuck in the very middle
Walking the tight rope of life
Fallin' on one side today
And on the other tomorrow
What more do I say
I was a sinner
All my life I've been battled over
Satan pulling me towards him
Promising me treasures that only
Last while I am here on this earth
Since I'm not surrounded by death
It seems that I'll be alive forever
Oh life
I'm in love with you
You chase me to every corner of my mind
A mind unlimited like the sands of time
And as you chase me I've come to know that
On a daily basis my mind is at war
Asking myself
What do I do with my time
Should I chill or should I grind
I don't want to live in a limbo
God, I'm done ignoring you
I need clarity and the only clarity
I have is that I am loved through destiny
Mixed together like chemistry
Bonds gripping me into the most powerful method of therapy
Allowing me to see
That no matter what goes on
I am loved so much