Joss Whedon - Alive Lyrics

Every single night, the same arrangement
I go out and fight the fight
Still I always feel this strange estrangement
Nothing here is real, nothing here is right
I've been making shows of trading blows
Just hoping no one knows
That I've been going through the motions
Walking through the part
Nothing seems to penetrate my heart

I was always brave and kind of righteous
Now I find I'm wavering
Crawl out of your grave, your finest fight just
Doesn't mean a thing
She ain't got that swing
Thanks for noticing

She does pretty well with feinds from Hell
But lately we can tell
That she's been going through the motions
Faking it somehow
She's not even half the girl she---ow!

Will I stay this way forever?
Sleepwalk through my life's endeavor?
How can I repay--
Whatever
I don't wanna be
Going through the motions
Losing all my drive
I can't even see
If this is really me
And I just wanna be
Alive