It's only been a year
I feel like I've aged ten
I'm still not used to you not being here
But I've learned to pretend
I'm counting down the days
Until you should be turning 28
Mom wants to get you a cake
But who's gonna blow out your candles?
And who's gonna raise your son?
And who will be with me when the rest of our family has gone?
This is all wrong
I know where you belong
But instead we're singing your birthday song
To no one
It's already been a year
Somehow I survived
Except for the parts that could only appear
When you were by my side
I don't want to keep track of the days
It's a countdown to nothing anyway
It's not like it's going away
I just don't know how I'm gonna handle
The years left ahead alone
Carrying the language that only you and I know
This is all wrong
I know where you belong
But instead I'm writing song after song
To no one