[ Featuring Jafari Jeter, Tammy Harper ]
You know what's crazy?
I struggled so long to accept all of me
The wholeness of me
Man I'm out here trying to shift and change
Cnd trying to be somebody that I'm not
Meanwhile God, you see me the whole time
You know the good, the bad, the ugly and everything in between
My pastor asked me one time if I'm attracted to guys
I smiled and said sometimes but girls hit different
If I try talk about it you gon look at my different
Cnd try to tell me that what I feel isn't Gods intentions
He was quiet for a minute
Then he said it's okay
You keep praying, serving God these feelings will go away
8 years later
Cnd ain't nothing really changed
I just learned to suppress
Cnd bottle up all my shame
But that's the name of the game right?
Long as you don't talk about it we'll keep handing you this mic
We don't wanna hear about that struggle keep it private
Cuz It's a touchy topic so it's better if you silent
Meanwhile I'm fasting
Steady getting skinny
Csking God why don't you change me if you hate the way I'm feeling?
They said I needed faith,
They said I needed discipline
You'll stop wanting women when you go through some deliverance
So I did, with everything in my body
Learned to hate the sin and especially my body
Couldn't seem to love what they called abomination
Cause the different from this sin is it's my orientation
Have you ever wondered why we try to kill ourselves?
Bc you tell us god hates a part of who we are
Cnd when you really love God and you don't want to hurt him
You'll do anything it takes to remove his scars
Even if it means slitting wrists or popping pills
Cuz you preach to us that death is the only way to live
Then you take these scriptures and your throw it in our face
Just to say that God loves you, and it's gonna be okay
But I know what you gon say you gone blame it on me
Say that I don't have faith and I'm being deceived
Cnd no matter what I do I can never just be
But look suppressing who you are doesn't mean that you're free
Cnd a lot of y'all are gay but you won't say anything
But yet you quick to tell somebody how they need to be free
Cnd if you never had that struggle
Put your feelings aside
Bc the word without love is really nothing but pride
I think my letter stops here
Everyone who loves God and struggles w being queer
Just know you not alone in God there's no fear
Cnd no matter what they say know that God is still here
We celebrate you cause you're truly amazing
So who are they to judge?
Kings and Queens true supreme remember you where made from love
We celebrate you God's greatest creation so who are they to judge?
Kings and Queens true supreme babe remember you were made from love
Who are they who are they who are they who are they
Who are we to judge
You were made you were made you were made you were made
You were made from love
Who are they who are they who are they who are they
Remember, you were made from love
Queen, Don't you ever forget
Don't you ever forget
You were made from love
King, don't you ever forget
You were made from love
Cause who are they to judge
Who are they who are they who are they
You were made from love
Don't you never forget
So who are they to judge
You were made from love
You were made you were made you were made you were made yea
Who are they are who are they who are they who are they
You were made from love
You were made you were made you were made you were made
You were made from love
You were made you were made you were made you were made
You were made from love
You were made from love
See I finally know I found someone who loves me
Looked deep inside and I fell in love with the real me
