Everything in my life I vaguely remember
And it's not cause the liquor or the weed
See before I even started those things
Things were kind of blurry
Cause I been floatin through dimensions
Way before namaste was the thing to say
And way before
When the radio would play (right)
And you would wait all day (right)
Just to hit record
For yo mixtape
Oh shit
I just dated myself
But I have been dating myself
You know
Trynna love myself
And be a better me
But it's been kind of hard lately
Been tryin not to have outside influences
I mean I won't lie
A few people got me to open up inside
But when they went to reply
It was the same ole cry
"You're thinking too much"
"It's not that bad"
And "trouble don't last"
Lately I been feeling like I need therapy
I can't even find happiness within me
Starting to really hate everybody
Depression seems to be taking over my body
I'm ruining relationships cause I can't face the truth
This perfect little angel got mad issues
And I can't confront myself
I hate lookin in the mirror
Shit, I don't love myself
Shit I don't even know myself
I can't hold myself
Just wanna hold my breath until
(Gasp)
I pass out
Then blackout
I don't give a f*ck no more
Ain't nobody knockin down my door for deals
I been doing this for years
Wasting my time I guess
(Hmm)
I do it cause I love it right
Not because the money right
Cause I ain't got no money right
Now
It kinda makes me wanna break down
Every door that's been shut
Make these niggas wake up
Like Folgers I'm yo cup
I ain't focused on these other niggas
I'm trynna get mine
So my family can align
And get they shit together
For way too long
We been storming through this weather
Lately I been feeling like I need therapy (need therapy)
I can't even find happiness within me (happiness within me)
Starting to really hate everybody
Depression seems to be taking over my body
I'm ruining relationships cause I can't face the truth (I can't face the truth)
This perfect little angel got mad issues (mad issues)
And I can't confront myself
I hate lookin in the mirror
Shit, I don't love myself
Is the world really really really ready for you
And what you gotta say
Cause you really gone make this niggas face they truth
Like right up in they face
So It's all about timing
A little patience
You been puttin in the work
And steady waitin
Yo break around the corner
Keep on chasin
It'll be worth the wait
Once you face it
But before you lose yo mind
Boo get yo shit together
Gotta talk to somebody
Like
Tonight
Maybe call yo brother Ryan
Just see what he gone say
Talk about to faith
Just see what he been goin through
I think that's what you should do