What's Happening? Video (MV)

Do you ever look at someone and wonder?
What is going on inside their head?

Really wish I knew, Really wish I knew what's happening?
Everyday confused, don't know what to do what's happening?
Always look around, then I would melt down imagining
The past tense of my life all the doubt inside that's happening

At least I admit, i really thought I could always spit
About the pain thats been in my life because you know me I've been through shit
Even though ever since day one I've had the capability
Time for me to show you all what really is reality

Everyday looking for answers and blessings
Only receiving the cancers and lessons
Circumstances lead to so many questions
Why do my chances to change end in tragic?
Why am I living the same stuck in habits?
Ducking rejection and busting the bracket?
Remain the same thinking so pessimistically
Typically going insane living cynically
Life on the edge and I cowered in fear
I have the power, f*ck out of here
Have to devour and swallow my pride
Follow the teachings and preachings of guides
People who generally just wanna help
You not accepting it it's hurting yourself
No they ain't reaching they know who you are
I need to stop need to think from a far I've been
Doing the same but expecting different
Brain in the race, stuck in a place, how the f*ck will I admit to this?
Going insane I need to change my music my delivery
I need to grow, I have to go, depression it was history
Piano keys and therapy was a part of me and always will
I've been rapping and adapting just know I still keep it real
That's my pessimistic side but there's a new realistic side
One that's positive authentic ain't no fake or fallacy
I'm a just do me and just follow my own policy
In disguise, blessings really came my way entirely
I am recognized, I'm a blessing in disguise
I'm determined and ambitious you can see it in my eyes