Mama, don't worry
It took me years
To say I'm sorry
To see your tears
Mama, forgive me
I grew up too fast
But it's not on you
It's in the past
You're not wrong
I might be strong
But I'm no Jacob from the bible
My first lover
Shared my name
My holy secrets
Of enabled cain
I thought I loved him
Maybe I did
But I was so young then
Could've called me a kid
Was I wrong
For feeling so strong?
He's no Jacob from the bible
But damn, he made me pray
He might be the only rival
Holding me that way
Mama, help me understand
I don't wanna be held down by a heavenly man
Mama, help me carry on
They call me wrong
You call me strong
But I'm not Jacob from the bible
I'm not even on the page
Just a lifelong disciple
Of loving you that way